i'm feeling better now i think?

sorry, again, to offend, but the reason I was harsh is because there are other people who suffer from that disease on this group who might see her talking about her weight so much and get upset. That's why I responded so harshly, just didn't think it was the best thing for her to keep talking about it when it might be a trigger for others to self-harm. It is very competitive, that disorder.
On another note, for me, I know I'm feeling messed up when I am constantly thnking of myself and how bad I feel and I can't even bring myslf out of it enought to laugh at my little boy. Thankfully haven't been feeling quite that bad lately.

You know you're messed up when you want to hide from your children in the back of the closet. Seriously.

You know you're messed up when your boyfriend comes home and finds you screaming cos you just can't take anymore!

Kind of messes him up too.

It is upsetting, like bragging rights. I have been open about my relapse but I have refrained from mentioning numbers because I don't want anyone to think I am in a pissing contest. I think if the weight is such a big issue and you are scared, WAKE UP AND SMELL THE BURNT TOAST, GO TO TREATMENT!!!
DOn't tell me you can't or don't have insurance or any other excuse. If you want it You CAN make it happen. There are places that accept without insurance and if you weight what you say you do no ER in their right mind would turn you away.
So either shit or get off the pot. If you want help then get it, or stop whining about it. It is ok to talk about your ED and vent but to constantly say it scares you and do nothing about it makes me wonder if you are not enjoying the attention of it. To be honest I did enjoy the attention when I was emaciated. I however did not enjoy the heart attack or renal failure. You don't enjoy your bone deformity, so get healthy then surgery will be an option!!!

good 1 there. But a long time since I'v had the option of 'throwing up, Not had a good drink for about 8 weeks.(i'm such a good girl you see, )

#35...I was gona say that that was very harsh...till I saw that you yourlsef had suffered with it so although yes i think that was quite harsh, i also think that seeing as you have been there, you have more knowledge about it. :)

You know you're messed up when you arrive at work and find out you have a dress shoe on one foot, and a tennis shoe on the other foot. (true story:O))

you know your messed up the night before when you wake up to cement walls and concrete floors..............

tp76, I get that way all the time, don't even have to be messed up...........gee, they are lovable, but sometimes you need a break.

You know your messed up when instead of seeing someones pain you see an oportunity to have a dig.

You know you were messed up the night before when your too scared to open you eyes and see where you at.

gee, I thougt this was a fun thread concerning knowing when you drank to much...did I read wrong?

yeah, I'm pretty sure that's what it was about....Once, I drank so much, I fell UP my stairs and bruised my legs up...didn't know the next day where the bruises came from until it all came back to me in a flashback, lol...I'm such a clutz

You know your messed up when you wake up to the sun beating down on you, the birds chirping and suddenly you realize last nights mattress was your dormitory outside staircase!!! LOL
Uhhh...yeah...that actually happened! lol