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Bullseye78
Bullseye78

So here we go again. Spirling right back down into depression. Lithium has given up just like all the rest of the treatments. Just found out yesterday that my secondary health insurance has been canceled since July 31st. They never sent me a letter and email a notification telling me to go on a website where it shows that it was. They never received my renewal packet so there's that. So having problems at home with the Mr. He doesn't understand shit what I'm going through which is extra stressful. I said just think maybe it's time for me to move on and just be by myself but just feeling miserable, isolating, binch eating, lost interest in the gym and being with friends and so forth. This fuckin roller coaster ride has got to stop at some point because I'm ready to jump the fuck off while it's in mid motion. This has been 20 years now. Going on half my life dealing with this bullshit. I'm not even living really, I'm just existing. Like I always say to people, once depression digs its claws into you it's almost like the claws are never released. Their dug deep into you. Some people are so good at masking it or using substances to mask or hide behind it. I've been down all those paths. I refuse to do any of that shit. I'm not putting on a fake smile for anyone, I'm not drinking myself into a drunken stupor, or I'm not taking a bunch of pills, I'm not doing any of crap anymore. That's all old now it's like when I'm like this, I'm just like this! I'll tell you I don't wanna be around anyone, I am not in the mood for company and not in the mood to do anything, I'm not coming to your birthday party, etc., I don't feel well and that's that! Well I hope everyone else is having a better day than me but this week and last week was kind of shit! So I hope everyone's feeling well and dealing with everything as well as can be expected. Hugs to all!!

jannytheresa
jannytheresa
Are you feeling manic? Maybe you should go to the Emergency Room.
KelleyPaterson
KelleyPaterson
I hear you, in fact I could have written this....except i’m not bipolar. I have major depressive disorder. I hope you find a med that works for you. I have been trying meds for months hoping for the right one.
JasonNysaCleomedes
JasonNysaCleomedes
I'm feeling very bad for you. I really hope you don't give up as your thread is suggesting.
Restful
Restful
I’m sorry you’re going through a difficult time emotionally. I know what it’s like, and have been dealing with the same thing all my life. As hard as it is, you may want to try behavioral activation techniques. For example, push yourself to at least drive to the gym. Then, see if you can muster the energy just to walk inside. Take one little step at a time. If you can’t do it, that’s ok. Try again tomorrow.
Bullseye78
Bullseye78
Hi KelleyPaterson!! I have MDD, Bipolar II, which is basically MDD. No Mania. That's BP I.
Bullseye78
Bullseye78
Good idea Restful!
Osheana
Osheana
Loving Hugs, Support, Wishing you Peace Light in abundance, In the moments of pain and struggle please be kind to yourself and know it too will pass , Hoping the burden of it lightens effortlessly, Hugs
ragteshi
ragteshi
When the brain isn't working right,there is a chemical imbalance that is not solved by drugs.And although,working out or socializing may bring temporary relief,the problem doesnt' go away.I tried that route and wasn't effective or sustainable.In fact,the longer one is on a brain drug,the more unpredictable the results are as there no studies that show long term effects of brain drugs.Nobody is born deficent in Prozac.I began reading up on natural mood cures and I recommend at least trying the supplements. If a library is available,the book is calledTHE MOOD CURE by JULIA Ross .Good luck !
nolaguy
nolaguy
Hi Bullseye!
I don't know if that's a current pic, but it looks like you have a lot in your favor. You have a friendly, inviting look, you write succinctly, you are clear on what's going on in your life, and you are pragmatic!
Don't quit looking for answers, I believe you will suceed!
eli_mom
eli_mom
Hello,
I’m very sorry to hear about your struggles.
I pray that you will not give up and will keep going each day.

I hope through this forum you will be encouraged and get the support you need to stay better. Take care of yourself, take one day at a time, and try to do things you enjoy. God bless.
escudc
escudc
I hope your writing feelings down helps and the responses give you a sense you're not alone and people care.. I wish you the best.
OneDayAtATimeMyAss
OneDayAtATimeMyAss
I've been right where you are...it's no fun. I have only recently started to understand how powerful your mind can be, and it is so damn easy to spiral down. You let go with continuing to try every day, and once you give over yourself to the negative thoughts, shit turns south quick. It can feel like so much effort just to get out of bed in the morning. Have you ever made a list of things to do when you feel like this? The list can be productive things, fun things, etc. Sometimes it is hard for me, but I force myself to do one thing on my list to start the climb back out of the hole I spiraled down. I don't ever want to hurt my family (again) by letting my depression completely take over. That is my motivation to get up and try again when I fall. What's yours?
celticnoel
celticnoel
Sorry i dont have any solutions or advice really but i can give you my support and i understand what your saying. Your a beautiful person inside and out please dont give up. Big hugs x
ellomalley
ellomalley
hey hugs. I have been going thru a rough time lately too. everything seems to be falling apart. no job. no money. my best friend and I aren't talking :( love yourself and remember that its ok to feel this way. this wont last forever, better things are coming. im trying to remember that my mental health is important but I cant force myself to feel better. I just need to give myself a break. and try looking at the positive things.
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