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feel nothing for all that matters. Stuck in my own land of hurt . I built a wall to keep ypu out but not to keep myself in. I never knew i was stuck til i wanted to leave. The voices of my past echoing in my mind like a thunderstorm. Breaking down my door but i still wont let you in. It aches when i cant feel, go away because i need you here. I cant find a reason to cry so i just go on pretending to feel. Emotions a burden i attempt to run from whats always in front of me..........
Twisted lies hide the shadows
Games played to lead the way
Broken produce that I am
Reminded of that each day
An Injury made unrestricted
Then immediately discarded
Moment again
Obscure it as I preserve
Gregarious however worship the dusk
Vanished sensibility
Derelict spirit
Bewildered afraid
Minuted life
Why do I do this to myself? I search for imperfection
Each and every day, Seas of life behind the smiles
Searching for signs, thats beyond my grasp
Am I really growing? Am I really healing?
Try to clasp but the oversight is the same, I loathe myself each time;
Death follows or its the same, such remoteness
We are the same, lost cores each found
I know this is wrong, something has to give
Just hows this going to end? Or will it remain?
Tomorrow is a new day, I know how it begins
Its always been the same, my psyche wont let up
Tried to run, But I had to know
Regret it now, As I all ready recognized it
So is this a mistake? Is this reality?
What happens now? I know the destinations
Separation at one point in time...
What is this pain I feel
That takes hold of me
From time to time.
A blackness that engulfs me.
Hollow from the inside.
Yet sometimes it just seems,
Like it never happened.
I glide among my peers,
With wit and charm.
Like I belong.
The weeks flow among the rest.
When a voice turns.
Thats not right.
What you did the other day.
My confusion begins.
Chaos burns.
As I struggle and fall.
Just trying to stay ahead.
Just trying to stay a float.
Until I wake.
Shadows of what I have done.
The mistakes I have found.
Beyond the expected norm.
The faces always talk.
The blame is directed towards me.
As I sink and think.
About why Im like this.
Thoughts become dark.
Light doesnt shine anymore.
I realise Im alone.
What is this pain I feel
That takes hold of me
From time to time.
A blackness that engulfs me.
Hollow from the inside.
The pit of darkness never fails
Anger seeps through and all I feel
Many days of sleep, nights unaided
Wake to an emptiness I face alone
No idea how to share this feeling of all hope gone
Self hatred, self destruction
Why not I am already dead
Or thats how I feel.