I'm glad you're reaching out here for help. A lot of us feel or have felt that way, including me.
Please understand it is depression making you feel that way, not how your life really is.

Yup that's depression.Ask gp for different meds also.I tried 5 till one worked.But it didn't work for my sister.One that made me sweat and panic seems to work for her.Don't give up good luck xxxx

Oh dear...I've been where you are now, sweetie, and I know it's horrible. It sounds like you need your meds adjusted. I found out I was a rapid cycler and had to get on lithium and prozac. Talk to your Dr. about your feelings and be honest with him/her. Your kids need you and we need you, too. Talk about what's going on to make you feel so bad. We'll listen. Hugs, C.

what has lead to this???
you have to think about this before doing anything else!
if there is something you can think of then it can be talked out without meds!!!
doctors will encourage them greatly
if not then it is a depression that is caused by hormones and chemicals!
*smile it may never happen, if it it has there could be alot worse when you think of it!*

i have like 2 friends......i can relate, neither of them have intense depression like me...

There is a point and you matter to everyone here. We all are dealing with the depression and it is a tough thing to do. However, together we can deal with it. Hang in there my friend. You children and friends do need you. May want to talk with your doctor about the medications. The right ones should help.

thanks to everyone your right its the depression i get my days but am feeling alot better being on here i can let it all out you all understand never uped my dose of tablets trying to do it without the doc dosnt understand but i will get there thank to you all big hugs

i'm listening, i know its hard but u got 2 push urself not give up, yes it is hard but when ur on a good day its worth it, try doing something u enjoy no matter how small it helps really try it. I felt like u last wk but this wk i feel great, sometimes i feel like 2 different people but i get by i have 2, if i can do it so can u i'm behind u, hold in there xxx

Hi my name is maria,I,m not going to give any advice like everyone else,I have just got back from seeing my pain doc,to be told they can no longer help me,
I would give everyting i own just to be free from my living nightmare of pain,Pain so bad you dunno what to do with yourself,you ask all the usaul question,s yet no one really can help you,
I have been fighting pain all my life physical and mental,{the two go hand in hand!}I have just got back from seeing my pain doc,to be told no can do!
I too am wondering what,s the point of going on?I am 44year,s old,i have one son who is 19 and a husband who i,ve been married to for 22year,s+,I have been told to live with chronic severe pain on the med,s they,ve given me,{i,m also on anti depressant,s}My point is you wouldn,t let an animal suffer like us yet we,re expected to just get on with it!WHY BOTHER?
You are alot younger than me and beleive it or not there is light at the end of your lonely dark tunnel you just have to keep fighting your corner!Don,t let the bugger,s drag you down to there level!Tell them your hurting tell them you can,t see light anymore just hopelessness,
Every day for me is a constant battle,You should have other people helping you to fight your corner,it sound,s like you need to change your doc and med,s,I,m sorry i,m not too great myself but you have a better chance than i do,please seek help elsewhere because you need your med,s sorting out and maybe then you,ll have light at the end of your lonely tunnel.
I have been fighting chronic severe pain for over 20+ year,s and it,s because of mt pain that i,m depressed.You have hope you just need to have help in fighting your corner,Take care love,
Best wishe,s
Maria

Wow I can relate...I make friends easily, but never follow through, returning calls etc... I have a tremendous fear and sense of "time left" to experience joy, to do something worth while. I know how to survive, but I want to LIVE. I want to go outside and LIVE damnit!!

Maybe it feels like not people understand on the outside. I'm glad you've come here. We'll listen. Most times we understand and if we don't, we'll still listen.

Please don't do this--It's just a permanent solution to a temporary problem!!

I am taking Effexor and Lamictal--they work just fine for me but do not work for my family--you say you are taking the meds but they are not working--you have to give them time to work if you have just started taking them and they may not be the meds for you--you need to tell your doctor--but please don't deprive those children of their mother--my biological father walked out on me and my mom when I was a baby an if my mom would not have met my adoptive dad when i was 5 i woulodn't have had one--point is i got lucky--if you do this your kids won't be. I think you need to speak to your doctor or psychiatrist about this--someone yhad to prescribe the meds so call them back, tell them how you feel and get them to try something else--some meds can cause suicidal thoughts and feelings. I live with depression and bipolar disorder every day of my life and though it's hard i'm still here. it'll be ok--you have to find what works for you and alsoget some regular counseling. Good luck, God Bless.