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Worthless

afreshstart
afreshstart

I'm worthless. I can't do anything right. I just take up space in this world. I am never happy and I can't get happy anymore. My grades are dropping. My parents are checking me constantly to make sure I don't harm anywhere again, which harming was a coping mechanism for me that honestly, as bad as it is, cutting helped me...Anyways, I'm in a dark hole that never gives me up to better and places. I can't live like this anymore guys :( Coping mechanisms like drawing, reading, doodling, writing out my thoughts, thinking about happy things, and therapy isn't helping...

Tired
Tired
Have you asked for medication? Sounds like you need it.
afreshstart
afreshstart
Yes @Tired I have asked for medications. I am now off of them because my family thinks that it causes this, but in reality, it doesn't because I am off them and it's still going on after a long time.
LivingWater
LivingWater
I agree. Sometimes medication is the only thing that helps. Cymbalta and Zyprexa pulled me out of my own black hole. God be with you.
afreshstart
afreshstart
ok..
sharaninmd
sharaninmd
When you see your doctor again, talk with them and your Mom and/or Dad about going back on medication. Continue with the therapy. It takes time with therapy, you have to allow whatever time it takes for you to start feeling better about yourself. Also, if you think this is not the right therapist for you, ask the doctor to refer you to another one. You need to feel completely comfortable with the therapist you are seeing. I hope you feel better soon.
Tiff123
Tiff123
Hello! You are not worthless. You are valuable and I bet you are a masterpiece too. I know things can get hard at times and we feel as if we want to give up. You have to fight to be the person you know you can be. Have you thought about talking to a licensed counselor? Praying for you.
afreshstart
afreshstart
I'm going back to my counselor in the middle of May. Not sure if it will help or not. All I know is that my life has gotten worse cause all I can think about is how people probably talk to me cause they pity me and also I can't make decisions either anymore. Head is spinning
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
Hi! So a couple truths for you, 'kay? You are not worthless, I promise you, you are so not worthless. Your parents check on you because they love you and they are scared out of their minds that they are going to lose you, this I know. Cutting, as much as you want to lie to yourself, does not help you, ever, EVER. I've been a cutter for 30+ years, I do pretty good these days, I can handle life without watching blood run down my skin as long as I'm awake. Unfortunately my brain got so used to my coping skill along with BiPolar Disorder and Cyclic Sleep Disorder that requires daily hypnotic class sleep meds, I cut in my sleep. I have amnesiac dreamstates, and if I screw up and don't check my room each night to make sure there's nothing sharp within 50' feet of my bed, (50' is my wakeup point) I run the risk of waking up with whatever sharp thing I grap sticking out of an arm or leg or stomach. And its not small cuts, its 47 stitches worth of big cuts....Cutting is never your friend, it's never help, its never a solution.....it can and will totally destroy your life if you let it.

Cutting is a learned behaviour, when we're young we learn what's easy and works to deal with the pain, fear, anxiety, stress, depression, all the emotions and feelings that are inside us that we don't know how to deal with....when we cut we do it for 1 of 2 reasons. 1. the physical pain replaces the emotional pain for a while, or 2. the bloodletting, the sight and belief that blood leaving our bodies takes the "bad" with it, letting us feel better. Neither of them work for long, and the longer we do it, the less they work. Problem is its so incredibly addictive and it becomes addictive very fast....and once we get addicted to it, it becomes very hard to stop.

The good thing is Learned Behaviours can be replaced with other healthy learned coping skills. Your Counselor can help you learn coping skills to deal with all the emotions that are going on, all of the hurt and bad things and head spinning, that's her job, to help you learn healthy ways to deal with all of it. As for people, right now the only thing you need to worry about is you, You are the most important thing in your life. I know its hard being your age and having thoughts of peers talking about you, etc. but sometimes you just have to say "screw 'em" they are not important right now. Me, I'm important, I'm my most important thing. Because you are so important, so not worthless and you can with the help of your Counselor figure out how to deal with things.

Your parents aren't trying to drive you nuts, they just love you, and their scared and all they know to do is try to keep you safe however they can....just remember that they love you.

if you need to talk, feel free to message me.

Hang in there and take care,
Kat
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