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Worry and thinking I’m a bad person

brooke2344
brooke2344

I've been struggling with mental health for two years now mostly related to my health and I constantly worry but there are times I worry about other things.. which is what I want to talk about and get some reassurance and comfort about it since I don't really want to talk to my mom about it since I'm worried she'll think I'm weird. Anyway years ago I was curious one day and decided to watch some animal/human p*rn and after that I never did up until a few months ago when I was bored and watched it again. Idk I guess I'm also worried about omg what if I like or enjoy it? Idk to me it just seems weird.. and I know it is but it also makes me worried if im a bad person for even watching that? Like I didn't enjoy it.. cause if I did I'd be watching it alll the time but I don't it's only been once such a longggg time ago and then recently a few months ago and since then I haven't watched it nor felt the urge to watch it? Idk if someone could just please reassure me about this cause I've been having it on my mind and it's just been so hard..

Kiwasicu
Kiwasicu
Sounds like you have Zoophilia. If possible, I would suggest you seek help from a licensed mental health counselor who can better help you understand what is going on. You are in no way a bad person for this. A lot of really wonderful people in this world have these types of issues. You're only human. None of us are perfect.
brooke2344
brooke2344
Well the thing is I’m not sexually attracted to animals or anything it was just purely for curiosity and boredom but I guess I struggle with trusting myself if I did enjoy it but I guess I just need that extra reassurance to help me I guess get it that I don’t actually like that kind of thing and it was just because of boredom and curiosity. As I said I don’t watch it often at all and it’s been a few months since I have and I don’t plan to watch it again but idk I guess it just makes me feel like I’m weird for even wanting to watch that kind of thing but thank you for commenting on my post it truly means a lot since I also struggle with doubting myself if I’m a good person or if I’m not for watching such a thing like that.
lighttheway
lighttheway
I think it’s probably anxiety making you worry it’s normal to think about your character and identity to question the things you do and decide if it’s something you want to keep doing or not. It’s part of keeping yourself on a moral axis. Am I a good person? Do I like myself? Do I want to change some things about myself? All perfectly normal questions to ask yourself if u continue to feel interested in things that you think are wrong then seek help to try and change
Bluepath
Bluepath
I dunno. I'm into way worse shit so I wouldn't get bent out of shape over something so mundane.
mutenoone
mutenoone
Bluepath that is truly disturbing.......
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