I have decided to quit worrying ..what will be will be. When i start to think negative thoughts i do something else or think of something else. I am not sure if there are reasons for anything but whatever problems there are it too will pass. Listen to your intuition and let it be. ( Hugs)

I get what you are saying. But I wish it was that easy for me to stop worrying. What makes me happy is being in the flow. I need to think but the anxiety and depression is interfering With me finding the flow. When I am telling myself not to think the automatic thoughts take over and all fucked up stuff that is going on is overwhelming. Because I am so I consumed with the negative when I need find the flow it only lasts for a few seconds before anxiety kicks in. I don’t get a good nights sleep. Life is just so hard

Mobile8001,

I know to well how you feel. I'm not sure what is going on with how your co-workers are treating you. I feel acceptance is important and mutual respect amongst co-workers is essential in a work place.

Anxiety and depression is something I deal with all the time. I hide it as much as possible but people who know me see something isnt right. I always say I'm not feeling well and must be getting sick. I guess in some ways it's true because at times it's so bad I dont eat much and go to bed as soon as possible when getting home. I definitely dont sleep well either. I toss and turn and many times stay up late watching Netflix because I dont want the next day to come too quick.
There are many people on DS with good comments that might assist you.
I too am struggling and can only hope things get better for you!

If you are looking for different work, and you find something, perhaps then you will move on. In my humble opinion..."I feel I am being held back. I don't feel like I am growing..." if true, those are REAl things, not just in your head. In sobriety, I seem to worry less, but I am still pretty good at it. My mother, God rest her soul, used to say to me: "The things you worry about usually never happen, but the things that do bite you, you could not have imagined." Hoping for you that things go in a better direction,

My husband passed from lung cancer 11/11/19 and I know this is still all new . The anxiety and stress sometimes hits like a ton of bricks. I’ve been having bouts of extreme vertigo and it’s very scary. The fact that I will never see John again and the fact of being alone for the rest of my life is very scary . I have joined a support group and signed up to do volunteer work starting in February. I know I need to stop looking down the road and take it one day at a time and this is a process. I’m giving it my best, but the attacks of vertigo has me scared. Going to call doctors office today to make an appointment to hopefully get something to help me over this hump. I’m glad I joined DS. Try to have a good day and a better one tomorrow.