There is only so much strength you can give before the mask falls off. Its easy to say but keep hanging in there we are all here if you want to talk.

I wish I had the miracle to take away the loss of interest. I go through this same thing at times. The getting out of bed and just doing something would be great but I try and I am tired all over again. I guess that's why I have come back to this site. Like right now I can't sleep.
I am glad to hear about the walks they are a good thing. I'm sure that your not pretending and there are good things in your life you just need to give yourself credit for them.
one of my therapists gave me a long list of different aspirations to read,maybe see if you can find some of them online, and when the negative thoughts keep playing over and over read them to encourage you with more healthy thoughts. Summer here has come and gone then I'll be back to seasonal affect disorder issues. I have to use a light box. Which can be a chore in itself somedays.

I guess I could ask if you like music, drawing, or any hobbies? I took up knitting although projects go very slow for me. I wanna try embroidery. Just a few suggestions, I am not great of finding different things to get me motivated. I just don't have energy, although I got stuck in a bet to start using the total gym I purchased a couple years ago. So I caved into my motivators help and have made it to day two. Just 15 minutes a day and have five things listed to try in those 15 minutes. I hope you can start to feel better soon, I to know how long these spells can last. We can chat anytime.

I understand how you feel. I’ve struggled with depression as well as anxiety since I was a kid. Do you know what brought this on? This past year was a difficult one for me so it was a struggle to stay above that depression line. I read that because I now live at a very high elevation the low oxygen could cause me to experience depression. I'm thankful theres always plenty of sun though :-) I tend to be a loner and don’t make friends easily. I have to force myself out of the house and to socialize. Sometimes I feel my alone time is a gift, but when I’m a lone with my thoughts too much I am not very kind to myself which in turn can cause me to be more alone etc… Usually I am able to replace my ugly thoughts with thoughts that I believe are true from my faith. I listen to messages on You Tube and positive music as well. I was wondering, if this has gone on for a while do you have a counselor to talk about this with? I know for many of my family members a low dose of medication has also helped. You are getting stronger and stronger every day! Each day is a new day of victory! Keep walking ahead one step at a time! Keep sharing and we will keep cheering you on! Hugs and prayers <3

Take care we are all here on this journey with you.