Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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meandthebeast 09/09/2008

I think I am finally starting to agree with most on here. Is this shit really worth trying to fix? I take my meds and healthy vitamins and I try my hardest to help everyone else. But it seems like I have run out of words or expressions to help others or to even help myself..

Dont get me wrong.. I for one do not want to die and I will still everyone that they dont want to either. I dont want to die.. Im just tired of feeling like shit and riding the roller coaster... Why is this disease so hard to treat. I dont have low self-esteem, my life is not at all bad right now and I have no money problems.. So what the fuck is wrong with me? I have no energy and all I want to do is sleep and cry. I hate to even admit that cause I have tried to be a rock here for everyone and I make jokes out of everything, just trying to get someone to laugh... I dont know if I can do it anymore... Just saying.. and hell no.. I am not looking for attention, not in a million years.... just letting you all know what I too am up against.. God forbid something horrible happen, how would I handle it when I cant even handle my own emotions right now? Just talking here.. sorry..

deleted_user 09/09/2008

Hugs for the cutest, sweetest mostest special lil dancin bear I know!!

deleted_user 09/09/2008

you do always come across as a happy person and a really caring one at that.
dont feel bad about writing about yourself i think its about time you did it hun
i think your lovely

loads of hugs xxxxxxxx

deleted_user 09/09/2008

hugs hunny i luv ya and hey hang in ther

deleted_user 09/09/2008

I'm upset that people have to say 'I don't want to look for attention' or 'I'm not trying to' because this is what DS is for. It's a support network of likeminded caring individual who're supposed to rally round each other when we feel like this.

A lot of depression is chemical, Yvonne. That's why so many canny understand WHY they feel depressed.....even if so much good is in their lives.

I have no answers other than time. Wait for a window of opportunity, when it lifts and you feel GREAT. Or even just a little bit chirpy or lucid. Because when you feel like this waiting is all you can do.

We love you, our little bust-a-move-bear!

meandthebeast 09/09/2008

I have been to counselors most my life but must admit not in the last year. Just thought I could handle everything now. I have lost a lot of people very close to me lately including Als son. I did better then I thought I would. But all of a sudden, I feel like Im giving up on me.. I just dont understand why..

deleted_user 09/09/2008

dont be sorry.. these are your feelings.. and its awsome that you are honest and up front about them. You can always help others.. there are times when you have to take care of you!

deleted_user 09/09/2008

I would have to agree with Stevey. When it's like this the waiting is just interminable.

Truly you are always so supportive and funny here; you have every right to express your feelings.

Much love and hugs

deleted_user 09/09/2008

In my opinion, I think that others really like you because you do make them feel good, but its ok to think of yourself at times. Its ok to not always have the correct thing to say or the correct expression. This disease is hard, it robs us of so much. You are suffering just like all of us. I am a very caring person, but right now, I cant even fix myself so I can listen to others but advice I cant give at this moment. I understand how you feel, because in life I am the constant support for others and I often dont get the support I need. Hope things get better and you have some peace that we all so well deserve!

deleted_user 09/09/2008

You seem to be so supportive here to so many people,..maybe try to have some 'me' time,..You also seem like such a strong person,..maybe it's time to let others be strong for you?....It's just an observation,..I am just getting to know people here,..

deleted_user 09/09/2008

Don't take my dancing bear..anything but not my dancing bear..

ScaredandScarred 09/09/2008

Love you so much, I know that I am just some random person behind a computer screen but I really do care for you

Is there anything else that you could do? Walking perhaps? Exercise apparently helps to increase energy levels and helps to improove mood

If not then all I can say is TRUST IN YOURSELF.

If you need to cry then cry, if you need to sleep, sleep, because your mind knows what it needs to heal

Here if you want to talk at all

Love you *monkey hugs*

xx

ScaredandScarred 09/09/2008

And with all you've been through the past few weeks it's not surprising that you are feeling bad right now. Perhaps a few appts with a counsellor would help? Just help you sort out how you feel?

Love you
xx

deleted_user 09/09/2008

AWWWWWW HUGS honey!!!!

Have you ever tried taking St. Johns Waart??? It is pretty good at improving the mood swings!!! Just be sure to ask your doc. You know ....maybe your doc should increase your meds just a tad....you may have built up a bit of a resistance to them....just a thought!!!

I am here for you if you need me!!!

Much love & God bless!!!!
Tere

deleted_user 09/09/2008

you are the best in my book and we all deserve a time of feeling the way you feel at the moment. we can't be a rock all the time... you are a giving and loving person.. we all know this here at ds.. depression is a mean illness. it is no respecter of persons. there is sometimes no rhyme or reason for it!! i mostly have circumstantial depression but i have had the other kind as well in my life... all i know is i love you and you mean the world to me.. you have always been there to help me.... i will always be grateful for your love to me.... xxxxxx sheila

deleted_user 09/09/2008

mean i completely understand where you are coming from right now.but i do know that i love you very much and it is ok for you or anyone else to need support and lean on one another sometimes.you have been through so much in the little bit of time i have known you and anyone else would have already been broken. i am always here for you anytime you need me.

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