Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have been floating around the fringes of DS for a while. This is my first real post. I've had serious depression issues my whole life but in the last 6 months or so, it has become unbearable. I am trapped in a job I hate, managed by a boss who has favorites and scapegoats, and I am one of her scapegoats. She makes my life miserable just for fun. My bf has not had full-time work in almost 3 years (not from lack of trying) and we are barely making it. I've applied several places and had two interviews since Thanksgiving, but no offers. Where we live, there are NO jobs right now. I am totally, completely trapped. Nothing gives me any joy anymore, not my boyfriend, my dogs, writing, nothing. Some days I can barely function. My stress level is so high, I feel like I could snap at any moment, all the time.
The worst part is, I have no support system. I am not the kind of person who has a lot of friends, and the few I have are tired of hearing me. Even my sister, who is probably my closest friend, told me "Suck it up, that's life" when I was pouring my heart out one night. I was so embarrassed and angry, I haven't shared anything with her since. Now I don't want to tell anyone anything for fear I'll get that kind of reaction again. And we all know how healthy it is to bottle everything inside!
What do I do? Things really are THAT bad and I really am THAT alone. I feel like I am going crazy.
The worst part is, I have no support system. I am not the kind of person who has a lot of friends, and the few I have are tired of hearing me. Even my sister, who is probably my closest friend, told me "Suck it up, that's life" when I was pouring my heart out one night. I was so embarrassed and angry, I haven't shared anything with her since. Now I don't want to tell anyone anything for fear I'll get that kind of reaction again. And we all know how healthy it is to bottle everything inside!
What do I do? Things really are THAT bad and I really am THAT alone. I feel like I am going crazy.
I try to limit myself with my friends because we all have "stuff" and ppl do get tired of hearing about i!
On really bad days I just close the drapes, turn off the phone and hide.
I figure thats better than foisting myself on othters!
I think there is a time to share with others and a time to "suck it up".
Also playoing word games on my iPad gives me something to do to light up another part of my brain.
Just know that we hear you and we understand. Don't ever feel isolated. Just because your RL support doesn't hear you doesn't mean you're alone.
I've heard suck it up and get over it plenty in my life. My family isn't built for compassion, they are all self centered. I am the "bleeding heart" of the famiy. I feel empathy and compassion, I take on other peoples' burdens and make people see their worth. But when I need the same in return it is denied.
This place has shown me that not everyone is as cold as the people in my life.
Use this site to meet people and unburden yourself of all the hurt and hopelessness you may feel in real life.
I'm around if you need an ear.
Belle