do you remember exodus when moses took the people out of egypt, and God provided manna to them?

What did he tell them?

Gather only enough for today.

What happened when they gathered too much? it rotted. He didn't let them have it.

Only on the sabbath it didn't rot.

Just let tomorrow alone. Trust in God to give you enough for today. If you get through today, then you have done all that you are asked to do. Nothing more can be asked.

As to God never forgiving you: just hang on a moment about that one. :) There ain't no such thing. Ask and ye shall receive.

I'm really glad you're having a good day today. When depression is a part of life, every good day should be recognized. Don't ask too many questions, the answers aren't important and they're not come be easy, if ever. Focus on the good days, focus on working with your Therapist and working through your issues and making life an easier place to be.

One question one never has to ask is does God forgive me. God is love, he's forgiveness and he's our future. God is the one who never turns His back, He never leaves you behind and He never leaves you alone. That's something you never need worry about. You have to remember that Depression is an Illness, it's not something you've done wrong or you chose, it's an illness in the chemistry of your brain, it just happens. You're not a bad person, you did nothing to cause or deserve this. You work your treatment just like any other illness and you will get better, remember that and hang on to it, okay. It will get better.

I don't know if you ever listen to country music but there's a song by Chris Stapleton called "Broken Halo's", he talks about some of the questions you talk about and addresses them really well, I added the lyrics for you....take care.

Seen my share of broken halos
Folded wings that used to fly
They've all gone wherever they go
Broken halos that used to shine

Angels come down from the heavens
Just to help us on our way
Come to teach us, then they leave us
And they find some other soul to save

Don't go looking for the reasons
Don't go asking Jesus why
We're not meant to know the answers
They belong to the by and by

Thank you for sharing. "Why?" is something I think most of us ask. Hard to see the finish, while still running the race. That race can have a very brutal path that makes it even harder to see the finish line. When you can't readily see the finish line, it makes it harder to see the point of the race. God is caring, joy, happiness, and all things truly good. Must remember that God is love too. True love is in the good and in the extremely awful times. That still small voice can take some effort to hear, but it is there. We go through things to make us better. We forget that most of the time He is carrying us through it. Our illness affects us in certain ways, like shutting out the joy and meaning of things. That is when understanding His love means more. He loves us, even when we don't love ourselves. No matter how awful we think we are, He loves us. The Lord Jesus Christ is our finish line, Who is also carrying us in our race. I pray this was of help. Thank you and God Bless.

First, we cannot out-sin God's grace, mercy and forgiveness. Second, that doesn't mean there not consequences for our sin. Lastly, you sound truly repentant, willing to change and try to not repeat the sin. Now for the hard part, forgiving yourself. People struggle with "but I did...,how can God love me?" Because once confessed by a repentant heart, God no longer sees or remembers it. He doesn't keep bringing it up, that is one of satan's tricks to push us away from God. You are doing the right things and I hope you continue to pray, read, listen to His word. Maybe try writing out verses on forgiveness, post them in places you will see them daily. While listening to music, perhaps try closing your eyes and really focusing on the words and their meaning in relation to God's love. Then truly let go of the guilt and move on. Prayers for peace.