Depression Support Group
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about anything?
I can't get interested in or focused on anything...
I have so much that I have to do...but I don't care about anything....
I don't have any feelings....except for anxiousness and anger....
I'm angry at myself...and at the world....and at people....never much liked people...but now I don't think I even like myself...I mean I am a person...but I'm sitting here unable to focus on anything but how I don't have any feelings...WHY?
and another thing...I feel like my blood is boiling? ...does anyone else feel like that...it's not burning or hot or nothing like that ...it just feels like something rushing through my veins....like boiling water but it's not hot....maybe more like a rushing rapids river?
couldnt sleep last night...had racing thoughts about what I need to do...and how I was going to do it starting today....but then I finally fell asleep after six hours of tossing and turning....only to be woken up first by my husband going off to work...then by some stupid inconsiderate mexicans cutting down trees in the lot behind my house...I mean really? I was finally able to go back to sleep for a few hours...then I woke up again to the sound of that damn chainsaw...
I walk around looking at all the crap I have to do at home and I just get this overwhelming feeling of anxiousness...I can't do it ....nothing...so I come sit at my desk...trying to focus on something ...anything...but I can't ....now I'm sitting here writing this post and I feel like crap...
soon my husband will be home and he's going to fuss and moan because I haven't done anything...again....GOD....
I've been like this for over a month actually longer...but I've been in denial....I just don't know what to do....and I don't care....
I don't care about anything...I just want to be left alone
I can't get interested in or focused on anything...
I have so much that I have to do...but I don't care about anything....
I don't have any feelings....except for anxiousness and anger....
I'm angry at myself...and at the world....and at people....never much liked people...but now I don't think I even like myself...I mean I am a person...but I'm sitting here unable to focus on anything but how I don't have any feelings...WHY?
and another thing...I feel like my blood is boiling? ...does anyone else feel like that...it's not burning or hot or nothing like that ...it just feels like something rushing through my veins....like boiling water but it's not hot....maybe more like a rushing rapids river?
couldnt sleep last night...had racing thoughts about what I need to do...and how I was going to do it starting today....but then I finally fell asleep after six hours of tossing and turning....only to be woken up first by my husband going off to work...then by some stupid inconsiderate mexicans cutting down trees in the lot behind my house...I mean really? I was finally able to go back to sleep for a few hours...then I woke up again to the sound of that damn chainsaw...
I walk around looking at all the crap I have to do at home and I just get this overwhelming feeling of anxiousness...I can't do it ....nothing...so I come sit at my desk...trying to focus on something ...anything...but I can't ....now I'm sitting here writing this post and I feel like crap...
soon my husband will be home and he's going to fuss and moan because I haven't done anything...again....GOD....
I've been like this for over a month actually longer...but I've been in denial....I just don't know what to do....and I don't care....
I don't care about anything...I just want to be left alone
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
It almost sounds like something chemical. For instance, my fianc has a special needs stepson who will call his sister a whore or me a bitch or say get the fuck out if the way if the mood strikes. He's just angry and depressed and IMO an asshole. But now that he's properly medicated, the anger has subsided.
You have to keep trying until you can find help if you think medicine can help, I kno you've tried many I'm the past to no Avail, but you shouldn't have to be miserable, not fair to Ou or your family
Isolating and feeling bad - pity parties, just make it worse for me. But you did come here, so that shows you are reaching out for help. That is a very good thing!
I think you accomplished your one thing for the day!
You might try a light box....I've heard it helps.
Hugs to you!