Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Ok, I'm down and have been for a while. I don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything but yet I resent my boyfriend having things to do. He got a new truck and spent the weekend working on it. He took the kids with him when he had to go get parts, etc... He asked nothing of me and made sure to stop by and say Love you or give me a kiss whenever he made it into the house. Not good enough for me...I just got more and more angry and even jealous of the truck. I know that makes no sense yet I feel like he likes the truck more than me. Right now, I'm sure he does! I wouldn't blame him! What do I expect? Should I expect him to sit on the couch next to me looking at me mope all weekend? His truck is a used one and needed the work done. He works all week so he had to do it on the weekend. My brain knows all of this yet my heart feels hurt and I feel even less important or desired by him. I'm sure none of those things ever crossed his mind. Why do I let everything push me further into self loathing? This sucks! I have never been so insecure! I hate feeling this way!
Depression lies. All the time. And what sucks is that the rational part of you knows that, but the "voices" (not real ones, I know lol) are so convincing in telling us that we're not good enough, in whatever way.
Distraction is the only thing I've found that can keep those voices shut up for a while. Books, TV, movies, pretty much anything. Start a new hobby, take up an old one...whatever it takes. I actually think my depression began partially because I was isolating so much that the rational side of my brain couldn't keep up anymore, and I turned some dark corner, if that makes any sense.
Either way, sorry that you're feeling this way. You know that you're right, and those thoughts never crossed your husband's mind. I hope you can "feel" that very soon. Hugs.
oh my dear i was SO where you are right now a few months ago.... although I wasnt taking my depression out on my fiance, I was just moping around and crying ALL the time and isolating like crazy and very moody. I think i read in previous posts youve started a new job and your insurance wont kick in for a few more weeks correct?
As soon as it does PLEASE go get yourself a psychologist and a psychiatrist. Best thing I ever did. Working through my issues with my psychologist has been wonderful and getting on meds is seriously what saved me from my depression and anxiety. Im not cured, but i can function now.
My insides hurt for you because depression is the worst feeling in the world living it day in and out and not being able to break the feeling. I remember crying to God in the shower when is this going to end. What did I do wrong? When did I become this way? And just wanting to die because it was so bad. Never would I kill myself, but I just wanted God to take me and end my miserable life (which isnt miserable at all - its just the depression talking). UGH! depression is horrible and I wouldnt wish it on anyone.
Stay strong. Talk out your feelings with your friends and family and US until you can seek medical attention! And as soon as you can, please do!