I do know the feeling, it seems like every time I turn around I screw something up! But remember that a lot of those feelings are just Depression whispering its dirty little lies in your ear, okay?

I don't know about the money situation, but a lot of times with dating we try to hold back because we're afraid they'll find out we're "crazy" (thanks, stereotypes!) and run like hell.

But the right guy won't run. And it's not something you have to disclose until you're ready. IF that's part of the issue, if not I'm just babbling here lol...

Your not messing up life is full ups and downs. Are you afraid of being stood up or being judged? Are you afraid falling in love? Where you ever hurt by someone who ended a relationship that now makes you sacred of committing to someone else?

I have felt the same way as you, sometimes I still do. Have you thought about just trying to go for a coffee with a guy. You can control how fast things go, you don't have to jump straight into marriage with a guy just becase you go for a drink :)

Yea I've been hurt by lots of people and lots of guys I'm scared I wouldn't be able to make a relationship work I'm reall y quiet and anxious all the time one guy told no relationship I try will work cause I have so many weird things about me and another guy didn't lIke how shy I was ....

I feel guarded sometimes. I think because I am divorced. I blame myself for being sick and I blame myself for the divorce saying it's my depression and anxiety that drove him off. When I know we got married too young, and there was too many issues. I have a boyfriend now who is seeing me as being sick. Sometimes he gets frustrated with me. You will find someone who will help you through this. You should try positive talk. For example: I know I turn guys down because they aren't good enough for me.

HONEY GENTLE HUGS...
TROUBLE IS WHEN WE CONSTANTLY TELL OURSELVES WE ARE NOT WORTH IT !!!!! OR THAT IM UGLY FAT STUPID ECT!!!
WE REALLY START TO BELIEVE IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEAUTY IS [[[ SKIN-DEEP]]] IN THE EYES OF THE BEHOLDER
THERE IS SOMEONE FOR EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
JUST YOU REMEMBER HONEY !!!
ITS NOT YOU WHOSE TALKING HERE
BUT ITS THAT DAMN [[[[D E P R E S S I O N]]]]

I hear what your saying.........Depression will do that,make you doubt yourself....and it sounds like you have been nhurt before,so you are protecting your heart,from the hurt ,thatbyou have felt...and I guess alot of it is you have to trust yourself first,which is a hard thing to do,trust me..Because when it comes to dating,sometimes all our inadiquate emotions come out,at least for me they do,and then you feel like you arent worth a damn to anybody..

I used to believe that there is someone for everyone, I don't anymore, or at least for me.