so why is this website here when every time i post i get ignored?

I think it's more about the time of your post than anybody ignoring you. Don't worry about it. Lots of people, at least the ones in the US, are in bed already, that's all. Which is where I'm headed, I hope, lol.

So why do you think you can't be with an attractive woman? And, as cheezy as it sounds, I gotta say that lots of the outwardly attractive ones are ugly as sin inside. Lots of exceptions to that, of course. But it takes approaching them and talking to them to figure it out.

Hmm...sorry this isn't very helpful...sleeping pills are kicking in...but yeah, I suppose the best I can think of is just to keep putting yourself out there. It's better than the other option, at least...that way you're doomed to be alone regardless, ya know?

Well, one thing about physical appearance is that many, many years later it has little or nothing to do with a long-term committed relationship. Attractiveness fades...but a genuine person that you love with all your heart does not.

Hang in there...big hugs.

God Does NOT Hate you.
And in His Eyes, All Of His Children Are Beautiful.

Please don't give up.

((((((HUGS))))))

sorry but yea, god does hate, if he didnt then why am i like this? why do i want to bash the hell out of hell couples? why am i walking around so god damn angry all the time i want to hurt myself now? every time i see happiness around me i want to spit daggers at them. why? because I DONT HAVE IT, and never will. every fucken day i get depressed and suicidal, why? why? why?

Maybe reevaluate what is important. If it is hurting you, it is not good for you. Meaning, change your way of thinking. Appreciate other things.

Are you getting any professional help for this? You might want to start there.

When you find the right woman she will be beautiful to you regardless of her physical attributes. Usually, people look at the attitude of the person they want to date. I don't think shooting daggers out of your eyes will help with the situation. Others can and do see this.

Be content with what you have, God may not give you a beauty queen but he has the right woman picked put for you. Open your eyes and look around. She may be right in front of you.

I hope you are seeing a pdoc and therapist about this. This much anger and sadness needs professional attention.

i have to wait a full year before i can get help, thats how it works here in my city. only way i can get help quickly is if i attempt to take my life, so what choice do i have?

I have felt ugly and nworthy for most of my life. I was overweight forever and thought if I were just thin everything would be ok. Then I got sick. I couldn't eat many things and I wound up losing 17 kilos. I started exercising. I was in the best physical shape ever but I still had the same problems.
Beauty, it's true, is only skin deep. Who wants someone to love you only for how you look?
You need to find the beauty within yourself and the beauty within others, it's the only true beauty that will never fade.
I'm sorry you've been unable to get the support you need. Please continue to seek it here though, at least until you can find it elsewhere.
Hugs to you. I hope you find what you need xoxo

You have lots of choices. Why are you only attracted to superficial women who aren't interested in getting to know you? beauties more then skin deep your old enough to know that. Only you know your issues in life. You have the answers to why you are you. Why are you so angry?

Is some other options on therapy etc here
http://www.dailystrength.org/people/587001/journal/3739108

Maybe when you're not quite so upset you should take a moment and reread what you've written here....

It says you live in Syracuse NY- if that is the case certainly you have options beyond waiting a year to get mental health services- you may not know what/where they are but that doesn't mean they don't exist. That is an excuse to justify and rationalize behaviour and thoughts you are comfortable in - even if you don't exactly like them.

Maybe, the problem isn't "some ugly fuckin' slob" but rather your approach, outlook, thought processes, and mindset- ALL things you have the power to do something about.

BTW, if you go to ANY emergency room in the country and tell them you are having thoughts of harming others they have to admit you.

I used to be like that. I would look around at all the couples and be jealous of them. It was part of my depression.

That is a normal human emmotion to feel lonley, killing yourself is not. You have to keep pushing, so what if that God person is TRYING to get you down. If that is the case, then be a thorn in his side.

There will be a time where you will meet someone, you just have to try. With trying comes rejection too, but that is how it goes. You will find someone that loves you for you, just push yourself to try.

Be yourself, and just go with the flow. If not you are right back to where you are. So why not do something about it? We are very strong people, more so than any other. We deal with the depths of pain on levels most people couldnt handle. We fake smiles, and we CAN have normal lives.

Just go out and give it a shot, if you get rejected keep trying, and if all else fails you end up right back where you are. Just dont give up.

((HUG))

I am a little confused there guy as to what you are actually posting or rather what my response should be....

You see a hot chick and you want to go kill yourself? Or, is it you want to take your life and give it to her?

And, god don't hate you even if you do swear? And, what's the matter with fuck'n ugly slobs?

I'm just not getting it here am I But I think from what you have written it would seem that you think you are owed things. Dude get a grip ........

I'll just have to stop here as I have deleted a whole lot of advice that would infuriate-inflame-irritate the gals who are on here as well as most...well.... every one...

BUT, really take 50 dollars go find a gal who gives professional services and get urself f'n laid.....come on do something for yourself.....

39 years of negative thinking, negative comments spit at me, negative people all around me. what on earth is positive, i have never known it, nor will i ever. i guess if there is such a thing as a devil he has me by the throat and wants to choke me until i end my own life.
i have never felt such seething anger like this before in my life, the last year it has been very very dark and very very strong. i want to hurt anyone who is happy around me, i want to verbally trash them at any moment available. THESE are the things, thoughts that run through my mind daily. there is something wrong with me and i cant control it, i feel as if i am at my very end.