okay so I guess i'm depressed....i have good days and i have bad days...but days like these really bug me because i don't know why i feel like this...my "family" frustrates me...i'm already estranged from my mom because i just don't feel like interacting with anyone...i don't like myself right, now much less anyone else...but my mom is not the problem...it's my 'second family'...you see when my ex-husband divorced me, he also divorced his family....they didn't like what he did and took my side...don't get me wrong...i love my 'second family' very much...i have known them for over 20 years...we've gone through alot together....but right now, i don't want to have anything to do anyone...it's not that i don't love them, cause i do...but they really just frustrate me right now...i am trying to get through this illness called depression...and i really can't stand to be around other people...but they don't understand...they want me to be there like i used to be...and i can't...i recently realized that i need to work on myself and and take care of my immediate family (me, my fiance' and my son)and anytime they (second family) come around it just frustrates me and annoys me...then they get upset and call me "mean" or a lier ("you don't look sick")...then i get angry, and more depressed...so what to do? i don't want to interact with them...i don't want be around my 10 y/o and 5 y/o nephew and niece...but i also don't want to push them away so much that i lose them...is that possible?

why do i feel this way...why does my second family frustrate me so much...and how the hell do i get them to leave me alone for now...at least until i get a little better...i really hate this feeling...but i don't care about anything right now...and they just keep bugging me and make me feel even worse

does anyone have any idea what i should do?

thanks

-DR-