Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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DepressedRecluse 02/12/2009

i am so sorry...

i don't want to feel like this, i really don't...

but i don't care about anything right now...

even the most important people in my life...
my fiance...and our relationship...
my son...
my mom...
i don't care about anyone or anything...why?

all i want, is to be alone...why? ...

i've always been a loner...but not this bad...

right now i don't care about anyone not even myself...

its like i resent my fiance and son when they come back from work or school...

its like there a constant reminder of what i need to do, but don't want to do...

but i don't want to feel like this...

i love them but i don't want to take care of everyone else...

why do i feel like this...what is this?

i just want to be alone to think about nothing to do nothing, and to feel sorry about myself...

god i don't know...am i even making sense?

why do i feel this way......

-DR-
-DR-

deleted_user 02/12/2009

You make perfect sense. The one thing that you need to realize is that your son and fiance may remind you of things you want to do when they come in from work and school...but the fact that they love you regardless of how you suffer, what you do or dont do, is amazing. This is unconditional love and not many get this in a lifetime. Hugs to you. It is not a bad thing to let them know that you need time to yourself. Go in your room and lock the door. Tell them dinner is grab whatever you want and just lay down or do what you want to do.

deleted_user 02/12/2009

I understand exactly how you feel. I'm struggling cause I can't figure out which side of the line I want to be on. I'm struggling to hold on and yet, something keeps yelling at me that I've tried long enough. I know I have people who love me and I don't want to hurt them so I try a little longer, but I want to get off the merry go round and I don't know how. Please somebody....... help me

deleted_user 02/12/2009

I used to be someone, now I'm a walking shell of a person who used to be ... I try to talk to my therapist and she suggests I go for a walk, I would if I could just get out of bed ... these dark clouds follow me where ever I go

sorry for rambling, I have so much bottled up inside ... reading your post I felt I could relate and wanted to reach out to you ....

DepressedRecluse 02/12/2009

thanks everyone...

its good to know that i'm not the only one who feels this way...

but it still sucks...

and i just want it to go away....

-DR-

deleted_user 02/12/2009

wanting, waiting, or wishing it to go away (for me) hasn't worked ...

actually I can't think of much that has except for the pets I used to have, their love was so pure and unconditional ...

what makes you happy? do you journal? that's one thing my therapist is always suggesting I do

deleted_user 02/12/2009

you are making perfect sense and it called depression its just apart of the phase that we have to go through unfortunately i hate when i get like that tooo but i have been feeling alot better lately and havent been one of those moods lately thank you God it is only a phase and you will snap out soon hopefully i wish you the best of luck God Bless

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