it's awfull what happened,but you have a lot to offer the world to,you just can't see this right now because of your depression
please keep safe
love and good wishes
x

some people are just sick, some think they have nothing to live for and there fofr anything they do wont matter because they have nothing to live for anyways. lanza had to of had something mentally wrong with him, it had to of been planned. nobody wakes up in the morning and says "oh, i think il shhot up and elementary school today" no, that doesnt happen. now what happened to all of those children is horrible and i pray for them as much as i can, i cant begin to express how upset i was and still am when i heard about it, those little innocent souls had so so much ahead of them. really everyone does, the young and old have something to live for. dont wish he would have came after you, all though i would have taken a bullet for any or all of those children if given the chance,i wasnt and need to continue living day by day and moving forward in life. and so do you! go out there and try, try your best. be kind and honest and slowly things will change, no matter what your situation.

I really don't have anything to offer the world I mean I'm a big nothing, can't get off the treadmill and br something

You are a human being. You have words of encouragement to offer here. You have your experience to share. You have your friendship to offer. You are far from a big nothing who has nothing to offer.

He could've taken me and I would've taken a bullet for everybody. Wish the person would've gotten help before taking lives. I don't need help taking my own life, I am capable myself...I digress.

I hate myself all I do is make people mad, annoyed saying wrong things I give people gifts to make them feel better and it back fires and makes the feel bad, I'm a big fat nobody

You know, I was having a bad days and the thought crossed my mind too: "why God allows people who are full of life to die while allowing those of us who struggle to find joy in life to live"...

But then I thought that thinking that was being ungrateful for the life I have which others would giving anything to get back. Those of us who have more time, more health, more life should honor those who died by not giving up....by valuing the life we had.

As long as there is life, there is hope. Depression gets in the way of our capacity to hope, but it shouldn't blind us to the fact that life is a gift and that we can't predict with certainty that things won't get better.

Have hope. You have everything to gain and nothing to lose by having hope. It's hard for me too (to have hope), but I have to. And you have to try too.