Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
On Saturday, my neighbors had a party. I didn't go over as I don't like parties. After it finished, I went over as if it was over and helped put away the tables and chairs as it was held in both their back and front yards. Since they had so much food left, they decided to give me some. I took it and went to sleep. I woke up the next afternoon and took all the food out. I reheated the patties and made burgers, reheated the wieners and made hotdogs, made a plate of macaroni salad, open a bag of chips, plated a slice of pie and opened a can of soda. I set it all on the table, sat down, looked at it and then dug in. A bite of burger here, a spoon of salad there, followed by some chips and cold soda to wash it down. I ate more than half before I was full. I sat there and enjoyed the endorphins washing over me. I can't feel happiness, but I can feel pleasure and I felt very well pleased. I sat there for a few minutes before getting up and cleaning. I placed the leftover food in the refrigerator and washed the dishes.
I was getting sleepy from all the eating, so I went to bed for a nap. Then, it came crashing down. Why cant it be like this every day? Where I can have enough money to eat what I want, as much as I want, when I want. Last month, a discount store was accepting applications. I didn't bother as an article in the local paper stated that 5,000 people had already applied for 80 positions. I didn't stand a chance with no skills, poor interviewing skills and being 6 years unemployed.
So, I cried myself to sleep. I slept about 9 hours and the worse part happened, I woke up.
I was getting sleepy from all the eating, so I went to bed for a nap. Then, it came crashing down. Why cant it be like this every day? Where I can have enough money to eat what I want, as much as I want, when I want. Last month, a discount store was accepting applications. I didn't bother as an article in the local paper stated that 5,000 people had already applied for 80 positions. I didn't stand a chance with no skills, poor interviewing skills and being 6 years unemployed.
So, I cried myself to sleep. I slept about 9 hours and the worse part happened, I woke up.
you are excellent at describing your feelings
" Why cant it be like this every day? "
it can
1st step: job / income
but its not easy when we have depression
in fact it can be nearly impossible
go slow
make things easy as possible for yourself !
example:
i once needed a job
but having depression - it was next to impossible for me to go outside and do the steps it takes to get a job
my solution:
i took it slowwww / and easy
i decided to take one tiny step per day
step 1: make a resume
step 2: once per day or once every 2 days i would go out and apply at a restaurant ( i wanted to cook )
after abouttt 2 weeks of having no luck - boom - i got a job offer / i had a new job
for me - getting outside was dreadful - i found that if i bought a coffee when i was outside it made things a lot easier because getting a coffee was a tiny little thing that gave me some sense of joy
bottom line:
make things easy for yourself / take forward steps slowly
=)