it sounds like the disease of depression is way over your Mother's head. Beyond her understanding. Forgive her for it, and do not bring it to her. She is not receptive.

i hate myself soo much!

omg, im finally better this morning but last nite the moods gave me such a headache i couldnt concentrate and hadd to go to bed earlier...my therapist isnt here nd my mom is scared of bringing me to the psychiatrist other there because the insurance might call my dad and he already said i cant go to therapy and so im not going anywhere...i just hope wat happened yesturday doesnt happen again, this happened to me before but i think last nite was real bad

It sounds like you are having a breakdown in your support system. Is there anyone else you can turn to?

I'm glad you're feeling better today.

BipolarHeart (((HUGS)))

you guys here on ds :)...i felt like i was loosing it yesturday and i tlkd to my mom about it but she wasnt serious and was like im possessed

you feel like your possesed?
or she thought you were possesed?


*hugs*

she just said it, she was joking around, when i askd her to be serious

hey there i can totally understand where your coming from when i was your age that was around the time i started having really bad epsiodes and anxiety attacks and no one in my family understood. it was a bit of a battle but we got through it and they began to understand and come around. see you got to know that to a person that has not gone through it they figure you can just get over it like the would if they were sad but this is more than just the blues it is an illness. i know your dad said no therapy so what i would suggest in the mean time is stick with ds and try to research as much about this illness as you can to not only help yourself but help your family to better understand when they are more willing to listen

yea i do lots of research and stuff, i think its there culture or something idk..but i wan help!

How can we explain the illness to people that do not understand what mental illness is.

It has a stigma that most people dont feel comfortable talking about and automatically think mentally ill people are crazy. That is not the case it is like any other illness.

The trouble is it is an internal illness from the outside we look normal the general misconception is that we can just shake it off, or can be happy if we want at will.

The trouble with depression is that people don't understand, the first thing I would recommend is that you have your spouse, family member or a responsible person to attend a therapy or doctors visit with you, so they can get a better handle on what it is all about.

There are also many books you can get from the Library that fully explain the illness you can share with family or friends.

Here is my take on why people think you can just shake your-self and every thing will be all right.

Everybody at some times have had a mild version of depression, everyone has felt down, sad or had emotional problems this is normally referred to as seasonable depression that can come and go with out treatment therefore they think they just gave themselves a shake and they were cured.

If you break your arm there is a big bandage. If you break or sprain your angle you have a limp or a stookie. If you are in accident and bang your face you will be swollen possibly even black eyes. If you injure yourself cut your leg or arm they can see blood, if you have cancer they can see your hair is falling out. If you have a bad flu you will be sneezing, coughing and runny eyes they are all visual evidence you are hurting.

On the other hand with depression we look normal, maybe a little sad face but there is no visual evidence to prove we are ill. (Not that we should have to prove anything)

The way I explain it to people is I site all of the above, say these are all external illnesses, and depression is an internal illness I hurt on the inside where it is not easily detected visually no bandages, blood, or hair falling but it is every bit a serious illness.

You can tell them do you really think I would want to be as sad and down all the time if I was not ill. I would rather be happy and normal there is no way I can just wake up and feel good or shake it of.

thank you....ok

Are you taking any medications to help you even out your moods?

Do you want therapy? If you do, and a doctor is recommending it (recommending in the sense of ordering or prescribing, not merely "suggesting"), then I think parents have an obligation to see that their child gets it. Has the therapist talked to your father about why he opposes therapy?

Perhaps when school starts back in the fall you could see a counselor at school. Maybe your father would be more receptive to that.

It's possible that your brother may be on to something. Maybe he's not criticizing you, but has seen a pattern in your behavior and feelings. When you're both calm, you might ask him to clarify what he said.

hey just wanted to let you know that I've been there with the parent thing. It can be hard when They just don't get why you are upset, or angry, or sad. It can be hard on you because there is only one thing you are willing to listen to, and truth be told you don't even really know what it is you want to hear. What you want is the magic words that will make it all better. My parents never got it. now that I am back with them they still don't. I know I never wanted to hear them say anythng that made me feel like they were putting me down, or telling me they weren't interested in what I had to say. I also never liked it when they said it would be ok - because I adviously did not fell ok.
I'm still not sure what I wanted to hear, but I did want someone to listen. I wanted comfort.
So that is what I can try to give you anytime you feel bad: I Wendy am willing to give you comfort.

No, my rentz dont want me on meds...even tho i do sometimes..i do want therapy i like therapy...my dad doesnt like how i tlk about him in therapy...even tho i told him i tlk about everyone...hes a jerk...i tlk to my school counselors too, but i switched to another counselor because the one i had called me a dramaqueen and she told me to get over it and stuff, suck it up...thank you wendy :)

oo yea and they dont believe any of that and they say i make myself like this