It is so hard for me to wake up in the mornings. Nothing about a new day seems to be an incentive for me to get out of bed. Laying there awake but with my eyes closed after snoozing my alarm about ten times, I become more and more tired just by thinking about all the things I have to do to get through the day. I finally get up from the bed saying to myself "if you don't you'll lose your job" and from there the rest of the day is just such a drag. But on some days, like this morning, I get lucky. I wake up with this sense of purpose and this tingly enthusiastic feeling as if I just had a nice cup of coffee. I sing on my way to work and smile, I actually smile and say good morning to people at work. But I think I can attribute these good feelings to a revelation I had last night.

I drove past a church last night where they were serving free food to the homeless. Seeing all those people in line holding empty paper plates waiting for probably the first meal they've had all day or maybe all week just brought tears to my eyes. I'm so thankful that my family and I are able to fill our bellies everyday. And I'm grateful for those selfless people that were there volunteering and take the time out of their lives to make this world a better place. I even stopped to ask the volunteers how many times a week they were serving food and how to sign up to volunteer.
Sometimes it takes a humbling sight like that for one to realize that there are other people in this world who are much less fortunate than we are and have much bigger problems and necessities. This depression that I allow to invade my life sometimes is a battle between my emotions and my logical mind that my senseless emotions usually win. Why do I let myself feel down when in reality I am luckier than God knows what large percent of this world? I have a loving family, a place to sleep at night, food and clothes. Most things that we usually take for granted. I want to learn how to let my logical mind win these fights with my senseless emotions of unhappines. I don't want to be slave to a medication, I want to naturally wake up every morning with a desire to live and enjoy this life God has gifted me with.

I challenge you to do something selfless this year. Volunteer to help the homeless, volunteer to help the elderly, take time to read other members' posts on here and give your heartfelt thoughts. I really believe that when you help others and when you realize that you are powerful enough to brighten someone else's day you will find that strength that you need to help your logical mind win the fights vs your senseless emotions of unhappiness and depression.

God Bless you all and I hope everyone has an amazing day!

Love - Nel