I'm breaking I wish I could end it all but I'm too tired to even get up, and I can't ask for help cause I'm supposed to be the perfect little princess who has it all together and is there for everyone else, but no one sees when I need help no one can tell instead my boss takes things that I do away and says he's doing to help me since I'm incapable to do them even tho I do them every week like I'm supposed to and it may sound weird but the jobs he's taking away r the ones that I love the most. And now he says I can be full time all because I took ONE sick day to try to relax and try to take care of me but that makes me a horrible person and unreliable, unable to do what I'm supposed to. But hey it's fine, maybe they are right maybe I am unreliable horrible incapable to do anything. I can't keep the house clean, I'm struggling to keep the sidewalk shoveled, I have basket after basket of laundry i get shit from my roommate when i ask her to do something, I am barely able to keep food in the house, I can't do it. I can't do anything. I feel like laying down in the snow and never moving maybe then people would see how much I try and as everyone is telling me failing.its just bad after bad after bad. Oh but my sister is struggling so there for she needs more help then me cause I'm just Lily "she'll get over it." " she's just trying to get attention." "She just faking so she won't have to do anything." I've heard it my entire life maybe it means that I'm worthless replaceable unwanted and if I just died or dissappered no one would even know anything was different.