Perhaps the clue is in the reason for why you do not take your meds. Do you not take them because they feel like they don't work, or does it stem from not wanting to be told what to do?

Do what your intuition tells you. You might want to go to the ER.

I'm sorry about how you feel. It could be that the stresses of life are really starting to eat you alive. And, people are growing more apathetic.

The apathy of people HAS NOTHING to do with you so learn not to take that part seriously.

Call 9-11 if you need to or make your house into a comfortable space, get a friend to stay with you and call the doc in the morning.

I am so sorry you are feeling so bad. If you think you need to check yourself into a hospital , then by all means do it. I want you to find the help you need . Why exactly is it that you don't want to take the meds you say you know you need to take? ( like Pepperman asked ). I hope you can find some peace soon.

(((((((( COMFORTING HUGS ))))))))))

LMT

UGH!...took a nap...woke up...ate a little... and still...I FEEL LIKE SHIT!!!

feel like i am going to explode from the inside out!!! ...does anyone else know what i am talking about? or the feeling I am describing? ...it's like an anxious feeling that is just getting ready to erupt...

I FEEL LIKE TOTAL UTTER SHIT!!!...AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO?

Please consider going to the ER.

how long have you been inside or by yourself?

boy oh boy you got it bad

BUT at least you know what 'it' is

And, it would not matter if any one told you what to do you wouldn't do it

Sounds like depression opened a case of whoopass on ya. I remember those days and nights. Just like you are describing in your post.

((((HUGZ))))

pssssst getting drunk and high never really worked for me though the twentyfour/seven/threesixtyfivetimes?(?= along time) drinking seemed to keep me functional though I would not recommend it because only professionals should do it,

>>MAYBE I SHOULD JUST GO GET DRUNK OR HIGH!!!...THAT HAS GOT BE BETTER THAN THE WAY I FEEL RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!

Seriously?? This in the same post as:

>> I HAVE MEDS THAT I SHOULD TAKE BUT I DON'T TAKE THEM...

and you don't know what do to??? I don't think the answer could be any clearer.

FUCK ... SHIT... DAMN!

STILL feel like crap...may even feel worse...

thanks for the concerns...I am a smart person...so the getting drunk or high suggestion is really just a cry for help...because as smart as i am I don't know what to do about this situation...

i went to church on sunday...and my husband was home on sunday...and went to work yesterday and today...but that just makes me feel worse...

all i want is to be alone...if i am with people, i have to fake like everything is alright and under control...while internally...everything is spinning out of control!!!....

so now I have to try to go see a "counselor'...I've had this appt for over a month...so i don't really want to miss it...but I don't want to go either...she is probably just going to yell at me...and i am so tired of that!!!...

so once again I say:

FUCK....SHIT....DAMN!!!

that's my mantra from now on...until i can figure out what to do!!!


bye bye

If tell u what would help but u just said u Dont like being told what to do.

This will sound harsh, it did when people told me this but years down the line I agree.... Try saying I can do this, calm down rather then saying shit,dam,fuck. I know it's hard to take the focus off how bad things are feeling sometimes and ur trapped in a whizzing head that's going to fast and u don't know what to do with anything,I've been there... But stating negative words over and over makes it worse

I can't 100% relate but I do know what it is like to suffer emotionally on a daily basis -- I have done so since a young age.

It's very important that you have the right counselor for you so if you don't feel they are helping or get it (or at least can mostly get it) dump in and look for another.

BTW - your avatar is totally dark and that is depressing in itself -- try to find those few things which still have light and beauty -- they are there. As far as the cussing -- I understand that people (including myself) do a lot of things when they are under pain and stress -- that doesn't represent you - it's you under pressure and pain.

good luck to you and I hope that I have helped even in a small way.

No no no, please do not go and hurt your body with alcohol and drugs, please.... My doctor asked me if I wanted to try hypnotism for my depression. Hmmmm... Makes me think.. Hugs GB

ok i heard enough i have been ware you are now and i did nothign to help my self just like you are doing and do you know what is weaiting for you if you dont look after your self now ............................i had to be put in the hospitall i was there for 2 months the doctor wanted me to stay a nother month but i had small children and he new i would do what i needed to do to help my self so he let me go home ..............i had to have ect ...........electric shock treatments ..................if you never had them befor they make you forget everything ..............it works it got me up out of the depreshion to ware i could be ok on pills .............i needed it because i was going dowen to far to fast ................i went for a visit hom on a weakend when the doctor said i could and my aunt took me out for supper and bought me a new dress so the next weakend i wasent well enough to go home but the folowing weakend i went home and i had to go in my closet and i saw this dress hanging in there i had never seen befor and i acused my husband of having someone over so i was all upset crying and i had to talk to my aunt and she told me all about our weakend ................................there were people at the hospital who went dowen into depreshion that they never came back up into realitie so all i have to say is i dont like to be told what to do but when i need meds for depreshion i take them i never want to end up there again and neather do you ..............and that is ware you are headed if you dont look after your self .............i am sorrie to be so blunt but you need to know what you are playing around with ..............i will keep you in my prayers ...................god bless

I think taking your meds would be a good idea. None of us want to be
on drugs , espescially antidepressants . But like my sister who takes
Pristiq says.."it makes me feel normal ". You are definitely not feeling
normal , so why not give it a try.