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DepressedRecluse
DepressedRecluse
being a loner?

wearing black?

not particularly liking people?

liking guns?

wanting to be in darkness?

Yes...I do have a heart...is it my fault that I feel for the Adam Lanza's of this year? ...they are defined by their actions...horrific, atrocious, evil, when in reality all they were looking for was a LIGHT in the darkness...why?

Why are we told that we have to find a way out of the darkness...the darkness is my friend...it's where I feel most comfortable...I don't want to be around people all the time...it becomes overwhelming...because these people don't understand me and think that I am 'sick'...I'm not sick....

I just like being alone...

I like wearing black...

I don't particularly like people...

I like guns....

I love the darkness ...

I'm sorry, I am just rambling - but over the weekend, I have watched the news, seen the postings, read the articles, heard the questions....and I am saddened...because none of the answers that everyone thinks is going to solve this problem is really going to solve the problem...what happens when we as a country enact stricter gun laws and lay down our basic freedoms and try to resolve mental illness with more and more mind altering drugs...or LABELS ( I hate labels - special needs, sick, handicapped, little people...REALLY? I mean really people what is the difference between little people and lets just say big people? do they have different senses than each other? do they have different emotions than each other? are they any different than each other and if they are does that make them less human? ) ...sorry I went off on a tangent there...but I am so tired of USA human race wanting to be the end all and know it all of everyone else - so like I was saying, what happens when we do what all the Drs, PhDs, scientists, politicians, and every other expert spilling their error free solutions in the media suggest and ...it inevitably happens AGAIN!? Then what?

Do you all realize that Adam and the three others like him this year, and all the other people who have committed horrendous acts of violence were simply normal everyday people, somebody's son, somebody's brother, somebody's boyfriend, SOMEBODY LOVED THEM...WHAT about those people...what about their pain and suffering? have you ever been hurt by someone you love? I have and I think that is the worse pain beyond any other - I've endured pain of all sorts - and the worse pain of all is the pain of knowing that you whom I love - don't love me in return. why? because I am different...

because I am a loner

because I wear black

because I don't particularly like people...

because I like guns

because I love the darkness

because in the darkness, I find what you are looking for:

because in the darkness I find: HOPE - PEACE - JOY - and LOVE.

It is in the darkness that I find the LIGHT
deleted_user
deleted_user
Here's the thing. You are a person.

I do a lot of these things.

Wear black
Hate the sun
Don't like people
I'm a loner....

But, uh, you know...conditions make me choose some of these things. I'm not a black, darkness lover who hates people by birth......

I feel for anyone who reaches this point of violence. But, no one condones it, and I think that is what they are expressing when they call it "evil" or tries to figure out ways to change it.

It's never ok to harm other people, and I think that's what people are trying to avoid.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Darkness can be very soothing to me. That's where I go to find the quietness that's never been part of my life. It's where I hide in my snail shell.

Adam Lanza was bullied and carried worlds of pain inside him. He didn't ask to be different, he just was. I know we've talked about labels on here today. Everyone is unique and a soul can't be categorized. I have major depression, but there is more to me than that. I wish he had found some comfort instead of making others hurt for him.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You can like whatever you want, just don't hurt anyone.
charliegirl29
charliegirl29
There's nothing wrong with the things you described......I am pretty much like a anti social vampire most of the time but it doesn't mean I'm going to go out on a killing spree. The unfortunate part is people who are like you are misrepresenting you by shooting up places. It's kind of like profiling. I don't know the guys story but I don't feel anything for a guy who up and decides to kill kids. I feel for the people who are impacted by the death of a child and loved one..no matter what the cause of death may be in life. It's never a good thing.
BlueYonderDreams
BlueYonderDreams
I always hate when these incidents happen because I am a loner/recluse with a personality disorder and were all not a time bomb waiting to explode. It feels like people like us come under more scrutiny.

That said, I will never get America's obsession with guns and all of the violence and destruction they bring. I am not saying you are wrong for liking them. I just don't see the appeal myself.

I'm not so sure why you are convinced that nothing can change. Britain banned handguns after a school shooting like this and they haven't had an incident like this since. It seems to me the solution is there it's just that most people really do not want a solution.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well sayid, Blueyonder!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
@ Depressed: I understand why you are feeling like this. It does seem that social stigma feeds on the profile revealed about the shooters. On another post that I made here I contended that just because the shooter may have had certain disorders/diseases, it did not indicate that all of us that possessed them have the potential to commit violent acts toward another, let alone kill another for senseless satisfaction gleened by the shooters. I share the same things you like and feel comfortable with. I am not a killer. I believe it is within those individuals, a dark, evil element, that brings about the results we see. I've been wondering if perhaps these males came under the influence of some "skin head surpremist" group because they were/are all WHITE males and most are from upper class families. It's certainly something that I have pondered in my head. This incident certainly mimics the one that occurred in Norway where the shooter had been endoctorined into the "nazi, skin head" society and he attacked children, was even remorseful that he hadn't killed more than he did, so it's been something I've considered. We are all trying to make sense of this tragidy. We need not stigmatize one another or point fingers at each other or make incinuations at each other. I've long contended there is more to these shootings than meets the eye. I hope that a gifted profiler or investigator ties the links together soon.



@ Blueyonder: Did you see the chaos that engulfed London when riots broke out last spring because of harsh austerity measures, when members in society retaliated with destruction and mayhem and the people who locked themselves in their homes had no way of protecting themselves from these looters and robbers who broke into homes and businesses? The people had no effective way of protecting themselves and the police were overwhelmed. Would you want to be in that environment were it to happen here? And, it is anticipated that this these "austerity" measures and food shortages that have caused societies to crumble in chaos overseas will inevitably make it's way here, so look about you my friend, with food prices soaring, people out of work and unable to find jobs, droughts that have caused food availability concerns, do you want to be in a situation like that, with no means of protecting yourself? BTW, my news agency disclosed that the rioters had knives, and some even had guns. Guns are available, anywhere, to anyone with the right connection and cash. They were in Great Britain then, I'd say they are there today.
etherize
etherize
What BlueYonder said. :-)
deleted_user
deleted_user
What is wrong with:

being a loner? ****Nothing, I tend to be one 75% of the time

wearing black? ****lol...Black is my favorite color and I wear it a lot

not particularly liking people? ****I like animals better

liking guns? ****I hate semi auto & auto weapons, but that's just me

wanting to be in darkness? ****I do not like dark (which is interesting) If it could be sunny and warm all day I would be happier


There is nothing wrong with your liking those things at all.
BlueYonderDreams
BlueYonderDreams
catwoman137: With all due respect, those things happen here. Hurricane Katrina looting ring a bell? How come there are never any law abiding gun owners around when these mass killings and other crimes break out? Guns aren't the solution. They are the problem. Britain isn't 100% free of guns, but they don't have anywhere near the number of guns as we do. The gun violence also isn't anything what it is here. The countries that have strict gun control don't have problems with the violence we have. It seems clear to me that guns are a big problem.
deleted_user
deleted_user
You are a person and I do not dislike you because you are a loner, wear black, avoid people, like guns, like the darkness or anything else. I like you because you have differences from me. I am a loner, occasionally wear black and now that I am going deaf, I avoid people. I like guns and feel the massacre at that school would have been much less if someone there had been packing a gun. Guns do not kill people. It is people carrying guns that kill people. People carrying guns can also save people. If someone had had a gun and shot Adam before he got past the office, then all those kids would still be alive.

I want you to consider me a friend you can talk to at any time.
sigmund2
sigmund2
I understand hating kids if you were tormented by kids but making it ok makes it likely to happen again. I get not always liking ppl and wanting those who deserve it to be put to justice. Verbal abuse wounds deep down but empathising with killing at that level? Many kids are very very good and would defend the adam lanzas of the world. Saying you empathize with him will not win you much support. Like being alone or wearing black but you shoukd very much feel uncomfortable saying anything more.
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