Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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searchingforbalance 05/29/2018

What do you do when you feel like you’ve tried everything? I’ve tried medicine and going to therapy, not taking medicine and not going to therapy, pretending like everything is okay. But I’m stuck now. I feel so down all of the time, so alone, so anxious, soooo tired, I disappoint everyone, everything I do I mess up. I’m 18, I want to go to college next year bc I hate feeling stuck in my house, but honestly, if I’m in the same place 3 months from now as I am today, there’s no way I could make it. I feel like I constantly disappoint my parents. I have siblings, but they’re older and moved out. I love my parents deep down, but I feel so much pressure from them that it suffocates me. We’re supposed to go on a month long vacation out of the country together and it’s all I worry about (besides college, that I’m fat, stupid, etc). My parents have said some really awful things to me this past year as I’ve been irritable/depressed, and it’s REALLY hurt me. Although it’s not easy to hurt me these days bc I’m so sensitive. I don’t want to be stuck with them for a month with no escape, be jet lagged and MORE tired bc I already can’t sleep, and be reminded of how unhealthy I am when I can hardly walk without getting winded. Today, I was at a stoplight and someone threw their cigarette on the ground close to my car. I couldn’t help thinking “I wish that came just a bit closer and I died in an explosion so this could all be over with.” And I know that’s terrible to think, but I just have no idea where to go from here?? I am so unhealthy physically, mentally, and emotionally, and I feel like a disappointment all the time. I don’t have many friends but I feel like I bother the ones I do talk to. No one ever knows what to say or how to help and it worries me bc it only proves that there is no way out of this.

Brooke911 05/29/2018

I completely understand what you are saying and where you are coming from. Lately I have been struggling a lot myself. Which is why I have come back here. Hoping to connect with people who understand what it is like. I know this. Things will get better for you. You have to keep trying and to look for the good in everything. Find something good. Find something pure. Everything will work out for you.

WanderingVet 05/31/2018

60 Minutes TV show recently did one about depression and people who do not respond to medication. The point of the program was (modern) ECT, Check it out.

wavewater 06/01/2018

ECT.... electro convulsion therapy.... for someone in an unsupportive environment?

"if you think you are depressed, first check to see that you aren't surrounded by assholes."

I don't know about this month long vacation with your parents..... if they will support your college, then maybe you should go to not rock the boat.

on the other hand, college is a long slog. many classes and many years...... so perhaps you should move out as soon as possible.

angelheart077 06/03/2018

I'm sorry you are struggling with all that's going on in your life, those are some really tough issues. It's hard to battle depression, and trying to do so alone is even tougher. I know for me, when I was struggling, my physician and therapist worked together to find the right balance for meds that finally helped me get back on track with my life. Once the chemical imbalance was addressed, the depression lessened and lessened and in time I was feeling much better. Sometimes it takes a while to find the right combination of what will work. I hope things will get better and you'll continue to seek the help you need to get to feeling better. Have you spoken to your parents about how their remarks/comments have made you feel? Surely they wouldn't deliberately hurt you. If so, then maybe rethink the long vacation. I'll be thinking of you and remembering you and hope to hear soon that things are getting better for you. Hang in there! Hugs from Texas

ar_row 06/07/2018

I'm sorry you are going thru such trying times. I have found that nothing worked either, except group therapy. On the ground group. We do have a real human need for compassion and genuine understanding.
I take it you have tried meds? If so, you might Google
kratom. Just between us.
You love yourself, through demonstration, and self love is freedom.
Put YOU first for a bit.
Andie

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