People constanly on my case for money that I dont have and threatening imprisonment. Thats what sends me over. At my worst I feel like all I mean to anyone is money. At my best I think... fuck em all...they cant have what I havnt got but its hard to stay positive when so much is going on all the time and I never know whats going to happen one day to the next.

What upsets me is people being uncaring, inconsiderate and uncompassionate.

hey i completly agree. my friend got banned because of there avaitor and and others for similar things. freedom of speach / expression seems abit closed on here. xxxxx

If someones talking so much I cant think, or an arguement gets me right down.

it is sad that we all see people in different lights. Friends to others, other see as menaces and get them banned. I always say get to know someone before you judge them totally.

But regardless, what triggers me, right now, is anything to do with my ex and that chapter of my life, and SHITTY Mass drivers and people!

chi...new yorkers call them massholes. what gets me down is trying so hard all the time, only to keep feeling like i am always down and getting kicked. kind of the same thing as what kate1971 said. basically.... lately.. life does it.

Do you know what is kinda ironic? Some of you may know that i am in a new name now, some may not. Anyway, some of the people that were downright nasty to me on my old name have been lovely to me in this one. Im still the same person, same views etc yet because they dont know me as that person... have been great with me and as I dont hold grudges...I speak to them as nicely as I would anyone that was a previous friend on here. :)

Arguments, fighting or any kind of bad feeling or atmosphere can trigger my depression instantly even if I was feeling ok before.

The thing that triggered me this morning (and I actually felt okish this morning for the first time in ages) was when, due to my recent binge eating which is something I do a lot when I'm down, I bent down to pick up my handbag and the ass of my trousers split!

Go on - you can laugh! Lol!

Arguments, fighting or any kind of bad feeling or atmosphere can trigger my depression instantly even if I was feeling ok before.

The thing that triggered me this morning (and I actually felt okish this morning for the first time in ages) was when, due to my recent binge eating which is something I do a lot when I'm down, I bent down to pick up my handbag and the ass of my trousers split!

Go on - you can laugh! Lol!

bmoney: You's call them that too? So far, every state within driving distance of Mass and their people have the same nick for them. before I moved here, I was always out this way visiting but up in NH and I heard that all the time. Funny I am now here and living in it and it is so true.

Bmoney...it made me in a very bad place not too long ago. I picked myself up though but my god...I felt completely worthless and that the only way these people would ever leave me alone would be if I died. I didnt feel suicidal, but I did think that would be the only way they would leave me be. Now, although im still having bad days ( like when another demand letter comes through the door ) my outlook is " I AM worth more than money and you will never again make me feel that im not!". I am in a lot of debt, mainly due to my kids dad but again, who cares? All they see is that its me that owes it... not the circumstances behind any of it.

yeah...and the only way to get though it is too keep hoping it will get better and that something will give for the better. like with me...we have enough for right now...but i have to keep believing that someone will call and hire me soon. i am practically working fulltime with the job hunting so something has to come soon right? just still makes it hard to stay up some days.

and yes....anyone near mass calls them that. it is too true and no offense but no one from jersey can drive either. with both, you can tell even before you see the plate on the car. lol!

Just my brain in general is all it takes. I feel like I am laying on the ground covering my head with my arms. Waiting for the next bomb to drop.

As far as this place.. I know I am a good person and I'll do and say what I want. If someone pisses me off i'll say something or I'll post whatever I want. I am not playing text book shit here. There are no playground rules in real life, when it comes to mean, rude and overbearing ppl!!!!!!!!

Honestly my triggers are ppl who change their avatars all the time and confuse my scrambled up brain! LOL! Just kidding I do it all the time too.

on DS itself...mainly the "know it all's" and self-proclaimed "experts" that come and go. been here quite awhile now...they come..they go...yawn.

xoxo