Don't worry, you are not screwed. You are looking for treatment and the wait can be frustrating but you'll get there. I had the same problem and found one of those doctors that you could walk into without an appointment. I gave them my symptoms, they ran blood and gave me a prescription for antidepressants and Xanex on the spot. $35 copay. Have them check your thyroid and hormone levels as well. They are also open late to accommodate your work schedule. Don't wait around for a crappy doctor. Find another one. Tell them you have extreme anxiety and depression. They will help you.

The wait sucks. I finally decided to see a psychiatrist. I called the office and the receptionist rudely told me that the Xanax I've been taking for years will not be prescribed. Which is fine, but she could have been nicer instead of assuming I'm drug seeking. I don't abuse it. Never have. Then said she wouldn't even make the appointment until she had my pcp records, sent the release form over non secure email, and hung up. Frankly I'm hesitant enough to see a psychiatrist given my past, second of all I don't have a printer so I'll have to print it at work, meaning it'll take 1-2 weeks to even get the records. Thirdly, why would you need my pcp records that are almost a year old? Lastly she was just rude and uncompassionate. I pray the dr is more sympathetic and understanding than that witch.

My point is the way people w mental health issues have to wait to even be seen unless we are suicidal is ridiculous. I'm sorry you're going Thru this. Hang in there.

You didn't waste your day off, you spent it trying to take care of yourself. For people like you and I that is a very important way to spend your day. My house is a mess too and I feel so overwhelmed when I have to do the doctors and insurance run around. Being depressed makes those little things feel so big. Anyways pat yourself on the back for taking care.

Thank you all. I suppose it is something to feel a bit better about. I'm going to try calling the first psychiatrist listed on the papers they handed me. If they are open hours later than I work tomorrow I will try going there to get help. I just really felt hope finally just to turn around and find out I was still not getting the medication I'm desperately trying for. It's just hard when the hope fades again.

There's also never enough time in the day. I couldn't even spend the night in the hospital for them to medicate me simply because work never stops long enough to do something like that. Working two jobs means never getting a day off and when you finally do you still can't commit your health to anything you truly need. I would have loved to stay at least the night, or even the three days for them to truly get a medication process going, but maybe that wasn't meant to be.

Anyways, fingers crossed I can speak with a psychiatrist tomorrow. Thank you again for the support. I really needed the confident reminders from you all. Big hugs!

Sometimes, it's not always the first key you try in a bunch that opens the door, you've got to keep going even if it means trying another place of help, don't stick to what doesn't work.

I sense that your job could be playing some role with your condition and perhaps it sucks, you may really need to go beyond medication to get yourself back on track.

Adjusting your day to day schedule and doing some little things that takes the pressure of work off you, could also help.

Yeah work could be adding onto it, but I can't afford to take time off from my jobs. I barely make enough to pay my bills each month unfortunately. Between financial issues, grieving over my grandmother, and trying to adjust to getting back into college and find a place to live within the next few weeks in a different state I'm just feeling so stressed and sad. I'm happy here with my friends, but there's still an overwhelming sadness that plagues me.

However, now I'm going to be leaving on Wednesday to head back to my home state where I'm near family and I should be ecstatic, but I'm not. I don't want to leave these people who are so genuine and know what I'm going through. I can't talk to my family about this just because they're just the type of people who don't deal with emotions really. And I don't want to go back to college, but it'd be stupid to quit all together when I haven't learned what I need to do my career and I've already built up 2 years of private college loans (which is extremely expensive; that's why I am transferring this spring). I just feel defeated and like I'm never going to be able to hit the pause button to get my heart back on track and happy again. I don't even have time to cope over my grandma's death. I had 4 days off for her funeral and all it was was me running everywhere to do everything. I'm still struggling with it and life is just still moving forward like a train, quick and unstoppable. I just don't know anymore...

You are young and overwhelmed. Don't be afraid to reach out to your parents for help. You need to lighten your load right now. You need to focus on your health first and foremost or this will spiral out of control. Nothing else matters at the moment, You must focus on your mental well-being, Don't quit school. Just maybe take 1 or 2 classes this semester or take a semester off.

That's true. I guess I never really think to take any less than 15 credit hours. I might either take 15 credits and have a couple simple and fun courses or just take less courses this semester. You all really help put things in an outer perspective for me and I really love that. Thank you all, seriously.

Glad you're back. I took one semester with just 6 hours. I was exhausted and decided to lighten my load. I took two night classes. One on Tuesday and one on Wednesday. No school from Thurs-Monday. It was great and didn't change the course of my life one bit.

One more thing, did you talk to your doctor? If so, how did it go?

That's really relieving to hear. And I'm glad you made that choice for your health. It sounds like it really helped.

Unfortunately I didn't go to my doctor. I couldn't get an answer since it hit the weekend. However, I finally told my mom I thought I was depressed and when I move home in a few days I'm going to go to the doctor to get medication. I told her not to tell anyone else and I honestly expected her not to believe me. When I was in high school and had it bad I told her and she thought I just had a lot of anger towards my best friend since we fought a lot so she wouldn't take me to get medication.

This time, though, she just said "okay. You just have to change your health insurance back to this state again." And it was nice to tell her. That way if they decided to keep me somewhere to see how I do on the meds my mom could at least know I'm somewhere safe. I guess things are sort of looking up for me to an extent. I just hope I don't get given the run around again like I did out in this state I'm in right now. <:)

Don't worry. You are doing all the right things. I'm glad you told your mom because you'll need somebody to talk to when you first start taking the medicine. There can be side effects sometimes that usually go away in a few weeks. However, sometimes you have to switch medications to find the right one. They usually take a few weeks to really start working but they can be a life saver. Be very honest with the doctor and they will give you something.

Okay thank you. And I have a question, I don't know if you would have the answer or not. People say medication changes you (like your personality) and from the sounds of it not in a good way. Like, you aren't yourself anymore. Would that be just a side effect that goes away, or is that even true?

Not at all. Most side effects disappear in a few weeks once your body adjusts. Nothing to worry about.