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Well I'm home, but I'm not.

Rascimo
Rascimo

 I came home from my surgery  2 wks ago today. I was so EXCITED to come home I was excited to see all my animals again. Then things blew up in my face.  Bad news in mail, got that taken care of.   Bird hated me, he's almost back to normal again just needed to see that I wasn't gonna send him back. I am glad to be with my animals, but not glad to be home.


 When I said I'm home, but I'm not, I meant it. i'm in constant panic attack mode. It REALLY  feels like a heart attack but I know it ain't because I went back to see mom and dad yesterday. Mom had fallen and broken back ( but she can walk just a fractured vertebrae.)  Dad was leaving to go to a birthday party. I went to help mom .  She can't be left alone she's physically disabled, even before that. I felt "normal" I didn't feel like  I was having a heart attack.


It sucks. I love this place but it seems like I'm gonna have to move for the sake of my mental health. I don't want to. I've been here 5 yrs, longest place i've been in since leaving mom and dads at age 20 I'll be 36 in 3 days


ReaDyO
ReaDyO
That is very interesting. So how long were you off to surgery before coming back home?
Sometimes you may just need company and make your home a home again, right now you are recovering from something and your mind may be in panic and makes the connection of home equals panic. Maybe it is just being along that causes that. I felt that way a while ago, I came home after being abroad for a month and I just didn't feel right anymore like it wasn't my sanctuary any more. But then I started inviting people over, getting comfortable in my place again and before I knew it I felt like my home was my home.
Rascimo
Rascimo
I was gone a month and a half.
OlderCPer
OlderCPer
i'm just the opposite, my 27 yr old son who's been staying with me for the last year, finally moved out Thursday and I spent the whole weekend putting my house back in its order, everything back in place, so clean you can eat off the floors, my guest bedroom and bathroom turned back into a guest bedroom and bathroom and just enjoyed my home! I love to live alone, well my S.O. is here sometimes, but he doesn't destroy my house with his crap.
Rascimo
Rascimo
I feel much better ( or soon will, still a little anxious) I thought I was getting kicked out due to housing. So today I went to housing to see what I could do. Got productive had to do something. I'm home. Nothing is gonna change that!! YAY!!!!
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