That will cause great pain. I know of guy in a nursing home that probably wishes he never did it missing his larenx and has to eat from a feeding tube. What's going on? Have tried joining the loniliness support group.?

I just want to do something to. Disappear I heard bleach can make that horn

I'm sure it would taste horrible. I know you really probably don't see it but these thoughts do come in waves. I promise that they will go away.

Your not any of those things you have listed. I know that for a fact. Your being very hard on yourself did something happen to make you feel this way?

Because I'm a monster you should see my luf
No money
No friends
No kids
No man
I can't get no where I injust want to dip

But you can't find those things if your gone!

invisible. it wont work bleach wont do it. ugg all it will do is eat part of your insides up. i know. if you only knew how long ive wanted to disapear. to go on this journey is my goal as ell. misery loves company ya know. i have nothing am nothing always ill be nothing. can i join you on this quest?

Ken was cleaning a house and got Clorox poisoning. Made him very sick, still sick from it and it has been a year. I don't think you are any of those things, you go out of your way here to help people. You are needed, please don't do this.

I don't think you are any of those things just because you don't have money, friends or a man. All those things usually come & go anyways. So just as easily as you might not have one, one day...you could easily have all those things the next. They are very replaceable. Trust me. I've had all those things, & I there came a point where I didn't. So what? Life goes on. Purpose doesn't come from other people, it comes from the wisdom of knowing you could get on by yourself beceause if you live your life, eventually things like that come to you effortlessly. How about you focus on things like family, health, & work? Or personal hobbies, topics you like such as anything from entertainment to politics. So many things can give your life purpose, you just have to be willing to look for them.

My last attempt I drank a bottle of nyquil. Tasted horrible but I drank it like I hadn't drinken anything in ages & had a crazy thirst. I just wanted things to be over. I wanted it to knock me out or something & cause my death which is possible i've done my research, I knew the fact that it can cause liver damage which is sometimes fatal. It wasn't my first choice but my parents keep all the pills away & from out of my sight because they don't trust me & they're trying to protect me from killing myself.

Think about this, bleach is even worse. That's a given. It'll kill you quicker but it might also kill you slowly & give you horrible symptoms such as:

Symptoms & Signs

Abdominal pain
Blurred vision
Breathing difficulty
Burning pain in the throat
Burns to the eye
Collapse
Coma
Diarrhea (watery, bloody)
Low blood pressure
Inability to walk in a normal manner
No urine output
Rash
Slurred speech
Stupor
Vomiting

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From what it says, it'll ruin your stomach which means you would be eating from a feeding tube the rest of your life if you aren't successful with it. You're taking a chance on ruining your life while trying to end it. Overall it just doesn't seem like a great idea if you're planning this out. I know that when I drank the whole bottle of nyquil (it was one of those huge bottles with about 25% extra than the regular) I wasn't thinking. I mean I was incredibly depressed no doubt about it. But I also did it impulsively not thinking about the consequences. I was stuck thinking about my own feelings & not wanting to be here...All of it was really exhausting afterwards though. I changed my mind in an instant & ended up in the hospital.

Be ready to regret it one way or the other.

You don't need any of those things to be a worthwhile person. Look around. There are plenty of people that have the things you don't have and are still feeling just as depressed and lonely as you are. Those are nice things to have (I'd like to have them someday), but they aren't the keys to happiness and being a worthy person. Love yourself first and it will make it easier to find them.

You feel horrible about yourself and want the pain to end, I get it.
I feel the same way and have thought about drinking bleach too.
Unfortunately the bleach idea probably wouldn't work and I'd be worse off.

All you can really do is put your focus on making things better for yourself, one small step at a time. First see a doctor and tell them you are suicidal. That will get you a much needed hospital stay. Then you get on meds for your depression and probably go through a series of med changes before the right ones are found. I know it sucks but you gotta do it if you really want the pain to end.

I just wanted to thank you all for the advice and caring, just wanted to say sorry for doing that last night, I didn't end up drinking bleach just alot of alcohol, I just tired of the darkness I've basically been in since I was 13, with some light very little light along the way and then it's dark again for long time, hugs to u all

Please don't do this my friend. I have come to know you as a kind, caring, generous person. I wish you could believe that about yourself. Please don't dwell on thoughts of hurting yourself. Hugs.

From experience, alcohol makes depression much worse! Find a Therapisf and Pdoc to help you. Also from experience...lol Alcohol renders antidepressants useless. Hang in there! (((HUGS))) Tedward