I undestand what you mean about emotionally hungry. Is it possible that being in the 'closet' is part of your autoimmune stuff? I feel strongly that how we feel inside ourselves can affect our physical health. I do think though that maybe you can find something like bush walking or bowls or gardening to take you outside, into the fresh air, and away from yourself. There is something about being on the green grass in the sunshine that does help us with our troubles.

I am so sorry you're are going through so much. If there is a family member that is accepting the first thing to do is try to talk to that one person. Talk to your friends if you need to. Try looking for an LGBT support group. I also suffer from alopecia, it really sucks because it comes and goes but i get treatment for it. If you have insurance you should look into doctors and see if there is treatment, if not then try to embrace it. Try not to think about the future too much, that's what can cause depression to emerge but thing to do is stay in the present and think about the here and now. I'm sorry if my advice sucks but I wish you well and I hope things get better soon. You did the right thing to come on this website because you'll receive some support. Good luck and keep in touch if you'd like.

thanks guys, i am from an oriental society from Egypt that refuses the same sex attraction and judges it. i founded some of my friends and told them my homosexuality they accepted but did not understand it. i have many medical books to be finished cause my exams after two months and i did make full use of my time at the beginning of study years. and for my hair i visited many doctors and recommended hair back or hair back plus spray as the best cure. lastly i underwent PRP (platelet rich plasma) but all are in vain. i can not lengthen my hair or make it as i used to. now i must leave anything and focusing on my study but can not do this.

Do they have counsellors at your university? It sounds to me like you need some kind of short term crutch to get through the study. I'm not kidding. I have had to study with depression and really - getting the job done even if it's b's is better than failing and having that go on your record. There will be mild antidepressants that give you a quiet mind. And what that means is that you won't be distracted by your own thoughts. If you've sat down to read this book - that's what will happen. Nothing to pull you away from that. It's fantastic really. But probably not a good long term move.

Right now you have papers to swot for. down the track you have the bigger picture of how to live your life. right now how to live your life isn't really urgent. And you may find once you have your degree that you can go travel a bit, and find a way of living that works for you. :)

It sounds like you have multiple issues that you're trying to find answers to.....and just finding 1 can be daunting. Finding a Psychiatrist or Therapist to help you learn coping skills so that you'll be able to deal with all of these changes in your life will be a very important step in managing them successfully. At some point your going to have to be "okay" with who you are and how you feel about yourself in order to live a happy and fulfilling life. A Therapist or Psychiatrist can help you get to that place safely and with understanding of why your their and why it's important. You'll never be able to make every single person in your life satisfied and happy....it's just not possible. The most important person you need to worry about is you, it's your life and you're the one who has to live it each day. Please find a Dr. to help you navigate these feelings so that you can be happy in the life you want to live.