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I have been feeling extremely low lately. I am trying to remember to take my meds but they don't seem to be able to touch this pain deep inside of me. I feel like I am literally being strangled by my husband. I don't realize sometimes just how controlling he is. Not always will he say that I can't do something, it is more the knowledge of the fact that he will be displeased and usually either I or my boys will get the brunt of his anger.
It has gotten to the point that I feel as if I must go to bed at the same time that he does even if I am not tired or can't sleep. I wait until he goes to sleep and then I get up. Some of this is also that I have no time to myself during the day and so after everyone is in bed is my only time. It is also something that I am in control of.
I recently made the decision that I am going to get my first tattoo. He insists that he goes with me even though he will most likely pass out at the sight of the needle like he did twice when I had to get my hand stitched up. And after all of these years of not wanting a tattoo, all of a sudden he wants to get one. Is there nothing that I can do that he does not have to be in the middle of.
I have also come to the realization that I have no friends that I hang out with, because I have to be home when he is home. He even gets upset if I have a teachers meeting that happens to be on his day off. I have to work, but he seems to not want it to interfere with his time.
I am lost as to what to do. I have no one to talk to and feel alone in my own house.
It has gotten to the point that I feel as if I must go to bed at the same time that he does even if I am not tired or can't sleep. I wait until he goes to sleep and then I get up. Some of this is also that I have no time to myself during the day and so after everyone is in bed is my only time. It is also something that I am in control of.
I recently made the decision that I am going to get my first tattoo. He insists that he goes with me even though he will most likely pass out at the sight of the needle like he did twice when I had to get my hand stitched up. And after all of these years of not wanting a tattoo, all of a sudden he wants to get one. Is there nothing that I can do that he does not have to be in the middle of.
I have also come to the realization that I have no friends that I hang out with, because I have to be home when he is home. He even gets upset if I have a teachers meeting that happens to be on his day off. I have to work, but he seems to not want it to interfere with his time.
I am lost as to what to do. I have no one to talk to and feel alone in my own house.
Sometimes, meds are there to keep us on steady, not to help us progress. In those times just being able to breathe is an at of Congress(and you know how hard it is to get something through THAT body :) Your husband loves you but it may be time to help him understand tat you are not as weak as he thinks, that some of his fears and disparaging remarks could be silenced while you work out how to build your confidence. Reassure him that once you are healthy, he can make those comments again and you both can feel better as you will be in a position to argue, or agree with his opinions.
I fainted while my wife was giving birth to our first son, interesting feeling.
Please let me know how these thoughts sit with you. Please remember to be kind to you, you are worthwhile.
Sam
Now she knows how I felt because he suffocated her. They are working things out and seem to be stable.