Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Today, my father had some shingles on the house replaced. I kept thinking how if I had a job, I could have paid to fix it or even replace the entire roof. Specifically, if I had gotten a teaching job over ten years ago. Too late for that now. (Then again, who knows how many students' futures I would have screwed up) I can't even get a job at a store. Too over-educated (I was actually the first person in my family in college, not that it matters now) and under-skilled. Also, I'm not good at interviews. I'm not "enthusiastic enough", "too honest" (in my father words), I'm not "sociable enough" or whatever else it is. That's what I think when I go shopping. I see the people working there and wonder why they got that job and I didn't. Then, I think that if someone else were in my place, they would have figured everything out long ago. I look back at my life and where other people might think if they had turned left instead of right, things would have worked out for the better. Me? It would have gone wrong regardless of what direction I took. I mess up everything. I hear people say how they get strength from the love and support of their friends and families. I have no idea how that even works, but I wish I did. At least, I would have some comfort.
It is never too late.
Never!
Gentle hugs
It's NEVER Too Late :)
(((((HUGS)))))
The more and more I think about it, the more I think that my life doesn't matter. When I was growing up, many people thought I was meant for great things and I naively believed them. Looking back, I've been more of a hindrance or obstacle to people. Any good I may have done was incidental, not because of me. In fact, anyone else would have done more if only I hadn't been there to take there place.