Depression Support Group
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I need help. I have struggled in this on and off relationship for 3 years and its been a toxic relationship. Part ofme wants to hold on and another part tells me I need to let go. I'm scared of being alone and what little love i get i think its better then none so i stick around. I have put myself into a downward spiral. My depression some times leads to self harm. But I just have been laying in bed until I have to do life. I am an adult so I do have a job and I suprised I still have that with how much I let my emotions affect me. Any advice? I have tried admitting myself before and that helped only for a little. I just dont want to let my mind control me anymore.
when my boyfriend is good i want to stay and when he’s in a bad mood it reminds me how toxic he is so i want to leave. i realized for myself i only go back and forth because my inner child wants to be soothed by another person since my parents didn’t. i started soothing my
inner child that feels abandoned. i visualize little emily and hug her. i journal about it too.
for example he will act out and yell at me usually i will try to soothe him to feel that love again from someone else. i hope that makes sense.
tonight he acted out and i said “okay” walked in the bathroom and told myself i am a fucking strong ass bitch i don’t deserve to be treated that way and i “looked” at little emily and said girl i love you and i will take care of you. there’s no need to feel abandoned any more i’m here for you. i felt power. i felt in control.
i hope that gives you a bit of motivation and help. you can do it love. this is your life and i’m here for you.
I was suppose to be spending time with the bf and his kiddos. But he rather have some new female around them. But in a couple days its always me. I need to stand up for myself.
I have done journaling it works only for a little. I also have a counselor. No matter what help I try to seek my mind always wins. It is easier to talk to someone that is going through the same thing. Then I don't seem crazy or that I am the only one.
My parents had always chosen my brother over me because he would lash out. So I began to self harm at a pretty young age.
I keep rereading your words and they do help. I have to encourage myself. Thank you a lot it means a lot that you took the time to reply.