Hi searchingforbalance, please don’t feel scared, you can reach out for help and more people will understand than you think. There is a self injury group here on ds too. I cut too, it’s hard to explain to other people. Please PM me if you want to talk it through. Your safety is so important and so are you. The darkness is scary, horrible even. Please, remember you are loved important and needed.

People will always tell you to reach out.

And I'm not saying you shouldn't. If you can, you should. Maybe others can help you. Most people, from what I know, don't seek out help. I know people that don't, and personally, I haven't. Although it may benefit you to reach out. I know that it's easier said than done.

If you've just started self-harming, and you might find this disagreeable, I recommend that you do everything in your power to stop. It becomes harder to stop the longer you do it. Just try to distract yourself, and see if you still need to hurt yourself. Easier said than done, but it really does get harder to control.

I hope that you can talk to people. Fighting this battle alone is tough.

If you're an adult...you can turn to your family doctor. They SHOULD have dealt with this countless times. If they haven't...save yourself a lot of heartache, and get another doctor fast.

If you're in school...go to your counseling department or nurse. Again, they should have dealt with it countless times.

I can't remember the statistics...but something like 15% of people self harm, and depression is even more common. Reach out...there IS help.

Hey, it sounds to me like you are suffering from clinical depression. I for one don't wanna give you a diagnosis that's for a professional but at the beginning of my 'episode' I tried to take my own life by self harming. Get yourself seen to asap by a professional. Things can and will get better, take care

I am so sorry you are feeling this way! I found that taking magnesium malate and ginseng helped me a lot! They have helped many others too! They calm the mind body and spirit and get rid of sticky negative thoughts that loop around. Much anxiety/depression is a deficiency of magnesium. Also, get outside, breathe fresh air, lay on grass, it grounds you again. Another thing that helps is volunteering so we get outside our own problems, it helps us as we help others.

Our minds are wonderful but also at times very hard to deal with. They feel as though they are attacking us for no reason at all.
I am sorry you're feeling this way, I know how it can feel - like your own mind is going insane and you can't control it.
I understand the calmness that self harm can bring, but at the end of the day it is only temporary and it is harming your body even more. You should seek help in order to help your problems in a more permanent solution.

You are not alone in this, and I hope you realize that once you start searching for help it can be a lot more accessible than you thing.

When you have a bad day, do your best to make it better, even if all you want to do is nothing. Doing something each day can make a huge difference.

I hope you feel better today.
I wish you well.