Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Update...my grandmother passed away December 12th. This Thursday passed. We really never know when our time is coming. I will say, this time I wasn't angry at God because I know my grandmother was tired. But I just want all of this make sense. Its been six months since my father died and now my grandmother is gone. I was so close to her. I don't even know if I'll be able to handle her funeral. Me and my aunt fly out tomorrow morning to Georgia. I want to know what is God preparing me for. If He doesn't want me to be a professional singer, I wish He just give me a sign. If He wants me to do something else, I hope it's something that I can do AND interested in. its just so overwhelming to have to deal with another love one's death. I know we all have to go one day, but this is so crazy to me. I lost my brother in October 2018, Ms. Norma this summer of May 2019, my dad in June 2019, my Auntie Nita in August 2019, and now my grandmother. A week and six days before Christmas.
The next month after losing my brother, I was fraught with this feeling of death. The first time I felt it, I was nervous and scared and didn't know why I was feeling. In that month a lot of changes were happening. I was staying in South Carolina because home wasn't healthy any more and I couldn't take it, so I thought maybe it was a sign that the old me was dying or something. But even going into the year of 2019, I kept feeling it and kept feeling it. When I left for California, that's when I stopped feeling that feeling of death. Now, sitting here thinking about that feeling I was having, what if this is what that feeling was. Giving me a warning that close love ones to me were not going to be here on this earth much longer and I didn't even see it coming.
I just need God to make it clear.
"....a lot of us use signs, in fact about 25% of us believe in signs. Like the heavens opening up or the cardinal landing. And the reason why we use signs..is because if we are worried about making a mistake, the sign is then an external validation that the decision is okay. So we are removing the internal insecurity and anchoring it onto something external. But the concern is that all of your power is then outside of you.....So when the cardinal doesn't land, science shows that we are left feeling more insecure.."
That's Mel Robins.. I love her. That resonated with me. Maybe you can get something from it. I think seeing signs have helped me over come a lot of hard times. Nothing is more beautiful then the feeling of a spiritual awakening. But we can have that and still follow OUR journey. Don't look for external validation....Im working on the exact same thing right now...
we are under a lot of financial debt and need a good paying job. Been trying for months. A friend or
loved one when they are no longer in our life leaves an emptiness. I lost my dad and brother, I wish
things were different. It is difficult to look at positive. I can feel grateful for the things that are in my life
making a list. it helps. Glad you are sharing your pain