Hello. I'm back. I probably should have come back sooner because things have been really rough, but it's like I didn't know how to put in words? Anyway, without really getting into that, I'm trying to seek treatment.

My general doctor basically gave me the boot. "You're too hard to treat and we've tried too many things. Go to a psychiatrist. Here's a list. Bye" I sat on that list a long time, feeling completely overwhelmed. I don't even have a car. Despite me telling her this, she called 2 weeks later to say she'd put in a referral on the other side of town. I can't GET there!

The clock has been ticking, I have until my prescription script runs out to find help. I finally worked up the nerve today to call my insurance and get the okay to go to someone else. Now I am waiting for their call back.

I know I'm doing all the right things, but the waiting is tearing me up. I just want to get accepted and get on the right track. I don't want to be left waiting, alone with my awful thoughts....y'know??