So I'm new to this site but I was recommended by one of my supportive friends.  So hi!

well here I go.

so I have a friend I've been friends with them for 10yrs there amazing artists and we have so many things in common but for the past couple of months I've noticed things that make me feel bad when there around.

context where in 2 different country's; so not to long ago I had a very stressful situation that was personal and I had to drop a lot of things without notice, one being a gaming sever. Everyone in the sever was very chill about (not there real name) but afterwards they texted me asking about there sever like right after I posted a professional notice to the group asking all about the sever. I don't think much about it and just gave the pilot response but not going into great detail of what was happening just " I'm going through a hard time and I can't look after this any more" I had saved the world male to the game and changed the sever to normal and down graded it to what I could handle.

i even offered the game map it to them but no response.

But the next day they posted in the sever they where taking a break and these where there exact words :

"On my end pacifically , the lack of communication over the decision to change the sever left me honestly upset and I don't want to lash out over the issue"

i felt very uneasy and mentally unsafe at that for some reason.

then I had some eals ask if they could have a copy of the map for fun even actually asking if I was ok befor that. I gave it to them as I saw no problem with that.they posted in the sever they had the map and could support it. This for some reason set them off my friend as they pulled them into a text group where I them and only certain members had access to and when on about things. In the end the other meber explain thing of what was going on ( as they asked and I told them everything they wanted to know) even after telling them Thay didn't ask if I was ok and that just didn't sit well with me. 

Couple of months has lasted since then and now whenever I'm in call air group talks with them I've noticed that when ever there there I feel small , belittled and after it I feel depressed. I had feelings like this befor with them but wasn't aware of it till after the sever thing.

the sever thing even came up again befor casual in a big group chat with other people (nothing bad) and they had explicitly stade they where still upset over everything.

and well that set me of aging I felt so hollow at that.

Idk I've noticed as well since then they always try to drive attention on them witch I didn't notice till someone eals pointed it out. Even lately Thoth group things I feel like they push me to the side lines..

is it jut me for feeling over thinking things and geting depressed after always being around them or are they really toxic??