Hi, I know that this maybe counter intuitive to your autism but I think you should try going to your local LGBTQ chapter headquarters. Oftentimes they have a coffee shop connected for you to carouse with locals who are almost in the same situation that you are in.

Please see a psychiatrist. They can help with this. It may involve most likely taking medication but if it makes you feel better and makes life worth living then its worth it. You sound severely depressed. Ive been there, trust me. You are not alone. I am taking an antidepressant, a mood stabilizer as well. It can give you your life back. Dont give up. You have the power to make your life better. Love yourself and dont give up. Hugs to you.

I am on SeroquelXR 300mg and it doesn't help me.A shrink suggested Zoloft but my mum is against that although i used to take it mainly for social phobia and lil bit for depression.
I ussually see a different shrink but i feel like i can't tell him everything-about my mood changes,my suicidal thougths,my depression....I am visiting him for some other disorder i have,and he is the best at threating that,but i feel like he can't help me with my depression.I tried to went to other shrinks to cure depression but they all said that i have to see ONE shrink for all of my problems.And now i am in position where i don't know what to do.

It could be the Seroquel that is causing it. Honestly sometimes it is not just serotonin that is lacking but domamine that you need or both. I recommend telling your current person about this and ask them if there is any way they could do a blood draw and test your dopamine and seratonin levels. How often do you get out of the house? I recommend either finding an autistic support group or a interest group that may give additional insights to give attention away from depression. www.meetup.com

I'm so sorry you're going through so much. I wish I had the words to say to make you feel better, I really do. I've felt disconnected with people, and even myself at one point in time, while going through depression and self-injury. I really hope with this site you're able to feel not alone. People here are surprisingly so welcoming. Even talking about it, I hope, might help you along the way.

I'm here should you ever need to rant. I'd love to talk to you further, and help in any way I might be able to. You sound like a lovely person. Take everything one day at a time. Things will not change overnight. -eHugs-

I don't get much outside,mostly only when i am going to my doctors.

I hope things will get better,i wish it all went away without using the medications....

apparently dopamine levels can be changed with diet and excersize and other various methods http://www.wikihow.com/Increase-Dopamine

What I used to do, which was actually really simple now that I think about it, was sit on my steps outside my apartment. I would do it alone, usually around 5am when no one was really awake, and just think. It may have just been calming, but it helped in the long run. I felt safe there, just watching cars go by without really caring who saw me. Maybe if you're able to find a place like that, near where you are, to just kind of meditate, it might help some? It sounds silly, I'm sure, but.. Worth a shot? Sometimes nice, fresh air, can just do wonders.

I'm sorry you feel this way, but you are strong and brave to come on here and open up and that is step number 1 to getting better, stay strong hugs

Hello there,

I am so sorry to hear you are struggling. I don't know what it is to be trans, but I do know the world can be a scary and unaccepting place to people who aren't exactly like them.

The good news is you are not alone in this world. I do not know what it is to be trans, but I do know what it is like to suffer from depression, anxiety, and social phobia. I often feel the same things you do. There are also plenty of people on here that also understand what it is to deal with these issues.

My biggest advice is to stick around this site, and also reach out to other groups both online and in person if you can that are dealing with your issues. Try to find other trans people. There are other people out there who know exactly what you are dealing with and it helps realizing that you are not alone.

People do care and there are people out there who are understanding and will not judge you. Sometimes it is a matter of seeking them out. Posting here is a good start.

Annecclever- i looked up your site and i am going to stick to that diet.

the problem is that i'm taking anti-epileptics and i think that may be partly the cause of my depression as a side effect.

Aphrodisiac- well i sometimes have my piece when i am alone in my room.i love thinking and i even wrote two poems yesterday and i like making up stories in my head,and download movies....i do that when i'm alone,and yes,it helps sometimes to move away from people...

KandeeKandy733-thanks.i wish you all the best too.i saw on your profile that you deal with simillar problems that i do and you probably understand me....

BlueYonderDreams-i see you get me.the social phobia was one of the worst things i had to deal with in my life

I met many trans people and i go to groups oftenly and that helps me....yeah,i'll be definetly sticking to this site,it's great :)