Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have lost many important figures in my life. I say figures because I include my dogs. I lost my first dog, Biko, in middle school, as well as my great grandpa who was one of my best friends. I also lost a friend that I met through the app Kik due to an overdose on heroine. Now I'm a junior in high school. Freshman year I lost my 4 year old dog, Stella, due to a seizure, and it's all my fault. I have a habit of eating food at night, and I had my door open because she likes to sleep in my room. Me, being stupid, fed her an orange so she would stay in my room cause I didn't want her to leave. I didn't know it would kill her the next day. And now, today I found out a guy that I used to talk to in middle school, and then talked to again this year in one of my classes, got into a car accident on Saturday after he tried to drive home drunk and hit a tree. I had to go to school today and I cried a lot of the time. I wish I would've gotten the chance to know him better. I don't want to have to deal with losing someone else. I have cut before, and I've had several suicidal thoughts. I want to kill myself sometimes at random moments. I feel like my parents should've just stopped having children after my sister. I have been bullied many times, but I can never escape my biggest bully: myself.
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Hi All.... It's great to see all of the new people joining the site... I'm loving it!!...smileI'm not sure if people are aware that if you don't have Bipolar Disorder but have a loved one who has the disorder we do have a board for people to go to in order to share their experiences and seek friendship, support or adviseIt's the Friends and Family of Bipolar Board.... I hope you'll take a...
Sadly loss is a part of life, some of us have to deal with more than others, but it does show us how damn much it hurts, I know personally it finally made me understand that I could never put my sons through that kind of pain, just so I could be selfish and kill myself because life was too hard.
A Therapist could probably help you with your grief process quite a lot.
I know the pain runs deep....it's so deep, in fact, the lines begin to blur and the only solution that makes sense is to just end it. But, we're being deceived in these moments, because the truth is, our own death continues the ripple effect of the losses already in play. Our own death doesn't heal, it widens the capacity for pain and darkness. There will always, always be someone that is profoundly affected by the decision to end your life. The point is...you were placed here intentionally and with great purpose. The tests of our lives lie within the moments of struggle and how we persevere....this is that season for you. It's not easy, nor is it meant to be, but you have not been forgotten....your pain has not gone unnoticed. Every tear is remembered and there will be a time in which this stage will pass...just keep pushing forward. You are not alone. We are honored to walk beside you. I'm moved by your heart and gentle spirit...praying for healing and peace.