That might just be the depression talking. You do OK with us here!

I've seen you throughout the Depression thread, and I believe a few others.. I think you're great, very kind, warm.. I, too, think this is definitely the depression talking. You're a great person. (:

I don't believe for a minute that you are messed up. Either you have been fed that garbage, or you don't have enough faith in yourself, YET, to say that isn't who I am and I am important just like the next person. It isn't best for everyone that you are alone. At least you don't just pick anyone to be with. Animals and books are wonderful, two of my favorite things, but we also need human contact, even if it's just talking or hugging. I know you are a good person and deserve to have a relationship with the right person. Please don't give up on yourself so easily. I haven't. Hugs GB

I don't know you but I know that this isn't true I feel like this a lot as well. Even with people I am with like my girlfriend. I feel like I am to messed up and she will eventually see that and leave me. It's not you it is the depression. I hope you have a great day!

I use to think the same thing but then I realized EVERYBODY is a smoking hot mess!!! HAHA! When depressed we feel we are alone and we are the only person in the world having these issues so we must be "broken"....not true!

Every human on this planet has issues. Some hide it better then others but trust me people are so worried about there own short comings they have no time to reflect on yours!

Personally I'm staying away from dating because for me it does cause undue stress. I see my single friends trying so hard to find dates and they beat themselves up about everything. No thanks!

If you truly want to date then please do not worry about begin "messed up".....No one will ever be perfect my friend....we humans are just a perfect mess :)

Have a great weekend B! Oh and.....GO PENS!!!!!!

Whatever bad things --happened-- to you - that's exactly what it was - they happened to you. You can use the experience to become stronger,
to be determined to not be destroyed by it. Hope belongs as much to you as anyone, anywhere. The same for all positive things. You deserve --all-- the good things that you would have deserved if you had been nurtured and protected. Your pain and sadness over the past may have a grip on your life, but you, without therapy, without pills, can loosen that grip. A great therapist, possibly the right medication, would move things along more quickly, in a good direction, but you choose your every thought, and you can choose to let go of the harmful thoughts.
The disease of depression makes it much more difficult, but not impossible.

I'm reading "The Little Stranger" now by Sarah Waters. I'm half way
through it, and every time I mention a book to someone, very
soon, the author goes a little nuts, or just starts writing things that
I wouldn't even want anyone to know that I read (lol), but, just in case
you might enjoy it, I'm sharing it. So far, it has been a great (library) book.

Sending you good thoughts. You add so much to this board.

I've been thinking a lot about your post and I truly do worry about you. My life was a hot mess since the age of 1 1/2 yrs old. And only got worse as the years went on. But deep in my soul, I know I'm worthy of someones love. I just may not have the energy anymore to try and accomplish that with all of my pain and depression, but that doesn't take away from the fact that I'm worthy. You are only as damaged as you allow people to tell you that you are. It's not best for everyone for you to be alone. It's okay to be alone, just don't be lonely. You are worthy my dear friend. Hugs GB

Thank you all for your wonderful support. I know deep down it is the depression talking. I just get so frustrated that the depression is there pulling the wool over my eyes and trying to destroy anything good.

Just checking in to see if you are doing better? Hugs GB

Thank you, GB. I am doing better. My mom was trying to rattle my cage today, but I try to remind myself her words reflect on her illness and not me.

Good for you. I have to keep that in mind as well. Not always easy but we can do it! Hugs GB