Tonight has been alright I suppose. I convinced my boss to let me do a movie tonight for the clients instead of a "relaxation" group topic. It really helped me get my mind off of where I am. I get off work at 11pm, in 20 minutes. And tomorrow is a crazy day, so I'm a little anxious about it actually. I have a phone interview at 10am, then I have counseling at 12, then I have a coffee date at 1:15, then I work at 3. I feel bad because my puppy will be in her crate that whole time. But even worse, I get off work at 11pm tomorrow, then I have to work again at 7am Friday, so poor puppy will be in her crate so much the next 2 days and my roommate is gone for 10 days (of course). So I'm going to have to BEG her mom to come let puppy out because she is only 4 months old and needs to go potty sometime. She can't last 12 hours in her crate without a potty break or dinner. I just feel guilty about it. Anyway, iot also sucks for me because I will get less than 7 hours of sleep Thursday night which will make for a rough day Friday. Ugh.

Positively, my parents have agreed to talk about me possibly moving home for a month or two to let me get a job and settle in before I move out again. I don't want to live at home forever, really. I like living outside of the house. But I need a job and I can't stay here any longer if I keep feeling this way, which these feelings are not going away. I wake up every day wishing I had died in my sleep. I spend most of my days trying to do homework and failing, crying, and sleeping before coming to work. Then I come to work and the knots in my stomach tighten and I feel as though I'm trapped. I have to get out of here. Quickly. And my best option is to give my 2 weeks notice on Monday. Hopefully my parents agree to this. I am more than willing to put dates on things and set up ground rules/ I don't care what it takes at this point. Even if I have to pay them something to live there for a while. I DON'T CARE. I just need to get home.