Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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distarr 03/24/2018

I am so sad today I suffer with major depression some days are better than others but like today I have had thoughts of suicide, I don’t think I would do it but I know how I would, one of the things that stop me is because how many people I would let down, I don’t have many friends but the ones I do I know it would hurt them.. I am so sick of such deep despair, I have to wear a mask just to function especially at work and yes there are times in which I have to go into the bathroom cos I am having a meltdown and on top of it I recently got out of a relationship with a true psychopath very abusive relationship, but I have suffered with depression my whole life I can remember it starting when I was 15 years old having suicide thoughts and as thenyears go by it gets worse, thank God I have never tried but the thoughts are scary enough, most likely has to do with childhood traumas but I have lived in denial all these years now since the breakup with my abuser it seems like all these traumas are surfacing to the point where I’m suffocated, I’m so exhausted I’m so sick of feeling this way, I am on meds I see a therapist but sometimes I think I know more than she does because of all the research that I have done... so I am glad I have this place where I can get these things out and won’t be judged or looked like a Freak, even tho I feel that way , no one understands unless you are going threw this it is such an isolating disease, I have had to give up so called friends because honestly they just make things worse and family aren’t much better, and I really feel shamed and guilt and really hard on myself I am trying to self love and connect with the inner child within but I keep letting her down, I so wish I could just feel “normal” or at least close to it, my brother has major illnesses so I can’t bring him down he is the only family I have left and friends well the few I have I just don’t want to admit how bad it really is, so thanks for having this available it does help somewhat at least my crying has subsided for the moment, I just want to say anyone who is going threw this you are not alone and i truly hope we can overcome this horrible disease, much love to you all

shadowlady 03/24/2018

I'm sorry today is such a bad day and that you suffer from depression. It is a horrible disease. Some of the best outlets I have found to help through it are keeping one's mind occupied on pleasant things (like a good book, hobby, or movie); exercise, journaling, and perseverance (don't even let your mind think about giving up). There's always a tomorrow beginning with a clean slate unless you give up. God bless. Prayers

distarr 03/24/2018

Thank u for your reply, it’s so hard sometimes but that’s exactly right if it the time I can believe it will pass but when your caught up with a feeling of helplessness that’s what gets scary, I journaled a lot tonight and that does help get out those feelings of despair, I just can’t lose hope at least I have the clarity in believing that

robotnik 03/25/2018

thanks for the love : )

djchurn 03/25/2018

this is a safe place to share your troubles. Be thankful it exists and when things seem intolerable remember you always have this place as a life preserver.

Novembergirl1950 03/25/2018

I, too, have suffered from depression my whole life. It's insidious. I have my good days, good moments and then, well you know the rest of the story. But I have to say, I have ridden the waves of depression for 67 years and I am still here. When it gets really bad and I have tried everything and feel I am out of options, I turn to my psych doc for help and let him make the remaining decisions for me, either it's an increase in meds or a hospital stay. Either way, I eventually come out of the worst of it. I try to remember this one statement that someone in hospital shared with me "wait just 5 more minutes, a miracle can happen", you never know..............

Sitting here with you during this very difficult time !!

Anna1212 03/25/2018

Sorry you're having a bad day. Hugs. I can relate to a lot of what you are saying. I had my first major depressive episode at 12 years old and missed a month of school crying pretty much non stop for no apparent reason.. and yea, I agree, I think a lot of it is from childhood trauma. i think some of us are born more biologically predisposed to it, too. and that shit just never seems to go away although it comes and goes. mine is currently resurfacing too, the childhood trauma after decades. I'm glad we can meet here and talk about this stuff. like you say, you have to go through it to really get it. it hurts. hang in there. y ou're not alone.

distarr 03/25/2018

Thank you both so much for sharing your stories, it’s a horrible thing to go through and it seems the older I get the worse it becomes, I try to ride it out and say it will get better I just have to believe it. Much love to all of you!

Rb63 03/25/2018

Im so sorry your going through a tough time.Really I truly am.Im 55 been dealing with this since I'm a little kid.I have so much to be thankful for but this is a difficult journey.I wish I could take everyone on this sites pain away.I had 6 months of doing well.after numerous hospital stays and met a beautiful woman.For 4 months I was her knight in shining armor.I shared with her all my problems.Shes supportlive but it puts alot of pressure on her and all the people that love me.I just started TMS therepy.Ive been having dark thoughts but I just keep fighting.I just feel like.a worn out pair of shoes.Ive never met or will never meet any of you but wanna let you know we can never give up even when the pain wants to tell you differently.I used to believe in god but I don't pray anymore.Keep fighting maybe we will find our way.Goodnight.....RB...

joe1981 03/25/2018

I know how you feel. I’d be happy if an asteroid smashed me. Been struggling with depression and anger my whole life. Right now I’m in the darkest time of my life. But I’m alive for my kids and I’m alive because I truly love my with even though she’s taking them and moving 2k miles away. You’re not alone.

eli_mom 03/27/2018

I'm so sorry that you are hurting. Please know that you are not alone, we are here for you.

Things may be difficult today but I hope you will not give up. Please take care of yourself. I pray that you will get better soon and you will overcome from depression. God bless.

Flashreturns 03/27/2018

Please Please tell me you are seeing a counselor? You must see one as soon as possible. In many cities there are low cost alternatives. But you must see one and draw up a plan out of this otherwise you will go round and round in circles. Stop pretending everything is ok-that is draining you of energy. Unless you are totally broke-take a few days off and get some counselling. Get some exercise too-it always helps

distarr 03/27/2018

Hello all,

I am so sorry others that have commented are going threw this and I thank everyone who commented it makes me really appreciate good,caring and compassionate people it’s really a light in my darkness, I spiral constantly , last week was really difficult I also suffer with bi polar so the range of feelings can be overwhelming, I don’t have mania mine just spirals from being “normal” to major depression, add on ptsd and it’s a nightmare... I see a therapist weekly and she is great that’s one thing I have to look forward to it’s only 45 minutes but at least it lets me get things out without judgment, I feel so alone and isolated a lot of the time that’s why I’m so happy I found this, like I said I thank each one of you so much that comment it’s nice to know I’m not alone and people do care, I haven’t felt that in a while especially after being in an abusive relationship. I wish everyone of you love and support and today I do feel better and know that my depression will pass it doesn’t seem when I’m suffocating in it but I just have to wait it out and work on my inner self ....

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