Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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Today I realized I really need to get help.

jekeilitz
jekeilitz

   I've know for quite some time that I have depression and anxiety and that I need to take care of myself. But something happened today that completely opened my eyes and made me realize that now is the time to do it. I can't keep putting off. I need to get help.   


My depression had been raging since I woke up. I felt really down and out of it and my brain was just super foggy and unfocused. I picked my boyfriend up on break so we could have lunch together and I was driving us around. While driving I kept making really stupid mistakes that I would never normally make, because my mind was so clouded and I couldn't focus on driving like I should. I would make a mistake and two seconds later go, "wait, what the hell did I do that for?" It was literally a product of how down and off I was feeling and I realized that I could have gotten both of us killed, because I wasn't mentally fit enough today to even be behind the wheel of my car.  


 On top of that it made me think of all the other things that my depression and anxiety effect in my life. Like how it keeps me from enjoying playing with my three year old. Or how I've quit two jobs and am now working in a factory simply because it's easy on my mental illness. And how I am always moody and down and how that probably effects my boyfriend who I recently moved in with. And the way I always bail on plans with my friends last minute and then feel awful when they get upset with me. And now it's caused problems with my driving. It's literally touching all parts of my life and I can't handle that.    I kept trying to say "Well maybe after I move and get a new job I'll feel better" or "maybe if I go back to school and start working on accomplishing something I'll be happier" but nothing helps, because the problem is inside of me. There are definitely parts of my life that make it worse and that I need to improve, but the base of the problem is whatever is messed up inside of me. I need to fix that before I can even hope to feel better.    


So yeah, it's been an eye-opening day and I hope I stick to this whole plan of getting help. I know I need it. 

billwfriend
billwfriend
are you taking any anti depressant medications? Perhaps seeing a shrink would help get you the type of medications that will help with that brain fog and the depression....worth trying...hugs
beatingtheblues2
beatingtheblues2
Maybe you could make a list of what you want/need to do to get help, and just tell yourself you're going to check one thing off the list each day (or every other day, or whatever works best for you). Depression and anxiety can make even simple actions seem difficult (as you well know by now). Hopefully your boyfriend can help you stick to your plan. Good luck.
Community LeaderThePepperMan
ThePepperMan
Congratulations on having that moment! Seriously, it is a hard one, but it can be the start of your recovery, your road to a better place.

Gentle hugs, and welcome to our little part of the internet!
Minidogs2
Minidogs2
You made a great step reaching out to talk about it. Please follow through and talk to at least your regular doctor about something to help you with depression. You can also read on a site like Web MD.com for specific information about depression and possible medications that would help. Also think about the possibility of seeing a therapist. Often a combination of therapy and medication is the best. that is what is helping me the most at this time. Keep in touch.
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