Maybe try going for a drive or a walk, try to look at something new. A change of pace can do wonders for breaking up a depressing routine. If you can, plan a day trip to get out of your corner of the world. Go do something that really interests you, like a local art cafe or nature center or something. It'll give you something to look forward to, and it may help with the symptoms.

Other than that, do you have a therapist or a counselor? Maybe talk to them about your problems. Ask about some medicines if you can. A little help is better than nothing.

I understand the pressures of life but, please do not take your life. I don't know your age or your issues but, dying is not the answer. I lost a son in a car wreck in 2005 and it devastated the whole family. He had a lot of issues in his personal life but, nothing compared to the loss we all felt. In most cases, things improve as we age, We see things from a different perspective and our priorities change as well. Hang in there. You have a son to live for.

It makes sense to be tired of being tired. Depression can wear you down. You clearly love your son and care about his well being and that love speaks volumes about your character. It takes so much courage to post here when you're feeling so tired and defeated. I admire your resilience. I'm wondering if you've started counseling yet?

I’m sorry to hear about your struggles. Do you have a therapist? I hope you can get the help you need to get better. I pray that you will not give up and you will keep going,

Please stay in the forum. I hope you will be encouraged and feel the support you need. Keep us posted. Take care and try to do things you will enjoy. God bless.

I know you are trying so hard to hang on while they force you to wait to see a therapist. That is the cruelest part of all of this. How much longer til that first appointment? (Has your doctor or NP even called to check on you in the meantime?) Hang in there.

I will try to do better and check in more. I got caught up in my own crap and these days find myself writing more smutty stories to escape.

You should try more writing... either journaling to get this all out (and show that therapist when you finally see her) or doing like me and just letting loose with the fantasies. Either one can be very therapeutic. (I need to come there or you come here where we are close by. I think how good it would be for me to spend time with you two--- helping watch the little guy and getting all of us out and about. Would do us all a world of good. )

Much love and hugs, count down those days and DO NOT miss that appt no matter what.