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guess I thought wrong...
I took a shower on tuesday...and I thought I felt a tiny bit better...I ate a little...talked to my mom - THAT had me trembling with anxiety...but I was able to calm down after we hung up...talked/joked a little with my husband...took my meds...went to sleep...I was planning on trying to go to my volunteering gig on wed. morning....HAH! Yeah right! that didn't happen....
Woke up on wed. thinking about the things I had/wanted to do - volunteer, go see mom, then serve dinnner at church....when my husband left for work he told me, and I quote -
" can you throw out the food on the stove before the trashmen come?....oh and I left the meat in the refrigerator so you can cook dinner? and by the way, when do you plan on clearing up your cluttered desk? "
well, that was all it took to PISS ME OFF! I gathered all the trash and took it out but then I decided to go to the store to get me some stuff...and I think that really messed me up...by the time I got home, I was shaking, my heart was racing and I was real short of breath!!!
I emailed my volunteer coordinator that I have been sick...am going to dr ...taking meds...but just don't feel well and didn't go volunteer...
Then I went to sleep....when I got up, I was a little calmer but anxious about serving dinner at church....I watched tv...forced myself to go do my job...gave some pprwrk to an attrnys wife who is helping me with something...ate dinner...talked to friends and basically pretended to be ok...not well, not great but ok....still seeing the Dr. and trying to figure out what the problem is ok....
Inside I was shaking... I was restless....I was anxious....OMG I felt like crap....it was the most depressing 3 to 4 hours of my life!!!!!!!!
Then today, well I had to put minutes on my phone - the attorneys wife said he will have to talk to me so I had to give her my phone number...
now I am sitting here waiting for a phone call from an attorney wheN I don't want to talk to anyone....
I'm anxious, tired, actually I feel exhausted and just want to go to sleep...
I'm still taking my meds and trying to make it to next Tues my next drs appointment but I don't know...this really sucks....I don't want to do anything but I have a lot to do....
I was going to try to go see my mom tomorrow fri...she has a dr. appt on mon and we need to arrange for transportation and then I have to go spend the night sunday...to get her ready and go with her on mon but I don't know....I don't know where I am going to get the strength to do all that and then to go to the dr myself on Tues....that is just too much for me....I had to force myself to go the Dr. last week...and it took me a week to muster up the strength to go to church last night...and now today....I just feel horrible....not that I've felt any better but it seems like I just go from bad to worse to horrible...
Sorry this is so long and ranting...but I just don't know what to do anymore....
I took a shower on tuesday...and I thought I felt a tiny bit better...I ate a little...talked to my mom - THAT had me trembling with anxiety...but I was able to calm down after we hung up...talked/joked a little with my husband...took my meds...went to sleep...I was planning on trying to go to my volunteering gig on wed. morning....HAH! Yeah right! that didn't happen....
Woke up on wed. thinking about the things I had/wanted to do - volunteer, go see mom, then serve dinnner at church....when my husband left for work he told me, and I quote -
" can you throw out the food on the stove before the trashmen come?....oh and I left the meat in the refrigerator so you can cook dinner? and by the way, when do you plan on clearing up your cluttered desk? "
well, that was all it took to PISS ME OFF! I gathered all the trash and took it out but then I decided to go to the store to get me some stuff...and I think that really messed me up...by the time I got home, I was shaking, my heart was racing and I was real short of breath!!!
I emailed my volunteer coordinator that I have been sick...am going to dr ...taking meds...but just don't feel well and didn't go volunteer...
Then I went to sleep....when I got up, I was a little calmer but anxious about serving dinner at church....I watched tv...forced myself to go do my job...gave some pprwrk to an attrnys wife who is helping me with something...ate dinner...talked to friends and basically pretended to be ok...not well, not great but ok....still seeing the Dr. and trying to figure out what the problem is ok....
Inside I was shaking... I was restless....I was anxious....OMG I felt like crap....it was the most depressing 3 to 4 hours of my life!!!!!!!!
Then today, well I had to put minutes on my phone - the attorneys wife said he will have to talk to me so I had to give her my phone number...
now I am sitting here waiting for a phone call from an attorney wheN I don't want to talk to anyone....
I'm anxious, tired, actually I feel exhausted and just want to go to sleep...
I'm still taking my meds and trying to make it to next Tues my next drs appointment but I don't know...this really sucks....I don't want to do anything but I have a lot to do....
I was going to try to go see my mom tomorrow fri...she has a dr. appt on mon and we need to arrange for transportation and then I have to go spend the night sunday...to get her ready and go with her on mon but I don't know....I don't know where I am going to get the strength to do all that and then to go to the dr myself on Tues....that is just too much for me....I had to force myself to go the Dr. last week...and it took me a week to muster up the strength to go to church last night...and now today....I just feel horrible....not that I've felt any better but it seems like I just go from bad to worse to horrible...
Sorry this is so long and ranting...but I just don't know what to do anymore....
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I know how that is because my man alot of times say walking on eggs or something where alot of times he doesn't know what to say to me cuz hes afraid set me off and put me into other mood or mood swings . I try my hardest control them cuz I hated whenever he say something to me just sets me off then get all anger and irritated then try go to other room be alone and try calm down and sometimes just end up blowing up and yelling at him for whatever he said that made me so anger or mess up .. Then feel super bad about it and tell him how sorry I am cuz I told him I wish I could control it and also whenever get really down and low and cry alot and sometimes just about nothing I wish control it , He seem think that people can control there depression and I try tell him doesn't work like that cuz been dealing with it for years and now these mood swings . Sometimes I feel like going crazy because of it . Been trying get into a doctor see about some meds because I was on them but went off of them because he kept getting mad at me for sleeping all the time and not doing what he wanted me to do .... But am here for you and if you need someone talk to just sent me a message . Take Care, I hope things get better for you . I know how it is have good and very bad days ...
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