This is hard for me because I'm use to just shutting down and isolating myself. But I am trying to fix myself so I figured why not post something here. This week has been shit for me. Starting Sunday I just felt off. The bad thoughts have been coming back. Every day it's been coming stronger and I'm starting to wonder why I'm fighting it. I should just leave the people in my life alone. I'm just weak. I want to help people and be a good friend yet my presence seems to annoy people. I would harm myself either cutting or punching a wall but I promised someone I wouldn't do that anymore. They were my releases now that I don't have them I don't know what to do.