Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I tried to seem happy and to think positively but i never lie and and to tell myself that things will be better will be just me living a lie in this manner i never put my problems first and always help others but i cant be happy i already overdosed on a lot of pills before and that was the most happiest time of my life and its quite sad for me but i do not seem to want to live life in an illusion to make it seem better for me and others around me. I have a lot to live for but more to die for, dont know why but death seems like the only way to get out of this hole that just gets deeper the more i try to climb out of it. I know i will hurt a lot of people but that will benefit them by making them more stronger by not having to worry about me anymore. I may be called selfish for this but how can i not do something that will make me happy. That seems to be it i lived all i wanted to live and its time to embrace the only thing i need left in the world. thank you for listening........
When we are really hurting suicide looks good because it's a way to stop our pain. I don"t know what comes after. After reading your post, it sounds like you are being really hard on yourself. Sometimes the first step is for you to do something nice for your self. We see this climb of depression as an all or nothing thing that will happen tomorrow, and it does not work that way. Try to distract yourself for a day with a good movie, a walk, ice cream or anything you enjoy. Don't take on everything at once. If you are not already therapy it is worth trying. Meds can take the edge off feelings which helps you to cope on an even keel. I hear what you are going through, and It sounds very painful. It will take time, but it can get better. I hope this helps. Give your mind a rest and keep posting.