Okay, so if you have a Foster Guardian, then you should have a Case Worker or Social Worker....I'm not sure whats your situation that you think your family won't listen to you, but if they won't then you find the person who will. Go to your Social Services Worker and talk to them. Let them know you're having problems with Depression and you need help and you can't get anyone else to help you so you need them to get you in with a Therapist or Psychiatrist. That's your best avenue of help at this point from what you've said.

Kat

For what it's worth adults do not generally respond to hinting. We aren't teenagers. We won't play that game with you.

This is actually something we learn in relationships when we date someone who has feelings and moods and hints at us, and we don't realise they're hinting because we're used to people talking straight, so we carry on innocent and then they dump us in a vituperative screaming match of how insensitive we are. We go away, hurt and devastated because if we'd known they were upset we would have done something, and how could we know that them looking at the tv with their head on the side meant we'd hurt their feelings?

We go for a few years being ultra sensitive, and picking up on hints with normal people that turn out not to be hints at all, Tiptoeing about, overthinking, oversensitive, screwing ourselves up and exhausting ourselves worrying if they are feeling this, or that, or ....

...so that they think we're neurotic and they dump us...

And then we think 'stuff it. If someone's got a problem with me they can tell me, just like I do with them' and that's where we end up sitting.

So in closing you're never going to get a result from the hinting. Either they don't notice, or they actively resent it. Talk straight to people. It's the only way to function. And I'm pretty sure they can handle it and will give you some genuine attention.

I agree with the others. You absolutely deserve the attention that you need. We are always here to talk to and if you want to talk privately you can pm me. If you have a case worker that would be a great place to start, but I am not sure because you didnt say why you feel your foster parent is trying to kick you out but I would think they have to care about you to have taken you in, so if you talk straight with them that you need help, they will listen. I dont want to go to the extreme example, but for the sake of discussion: no one wants to find out after someone commits suicide that they wanted help but didnt think anyone would listen. People in general if they think they could help someone and keep them from doing that will absolutely do everything they can to help that person and make them realize that they are loved, and get them the therapy and or meds needed to treat the depression. Good luck and hugs to you. Again, do not hesitate to pm me if you wanna talk.