I Feel so much anger and sadness, I want to cry but I can’t anymore, well sometimes. I mostly feel hurt and I... I don’t know. As I’m writing this I feel the tears but I can’t seem to really cry the pain away. I have no idea where this is coming from, maybe bcs I feel alone in a city where almost none of my friends live, the guy I used to like (now a ‘friend’ ignores me and only calls when he wants something. Maybe school, exams, wanting to doing things beside school and work to find my true talent but just can’t... All I know is that I have lost hope and I’m sad bcs I’m too afraid to ask for prayer from my pastor, I’m even to sad and embarrassed to pray myself.