It's so hard to change Psychs...I can fully understand you not willing to drag up and go through all your shit again. Yes a new psych would have your notes but would not understand you more until engaging with you regularly over a period of time. I had 3 different Psychiatrists in a 18mth period,which sucked. Not great and it left me disillusioned by it all. Speak to the Pdoc and tell her how it made you feel when she brought it up last Tuesday. Good Luck...

I can understand how this would be a very delicate subject for you. I am trying very hard to imagine what that was like for you, and I'm being sensitive about what I write.

Your therapist is a medical professional. They're not going to hold it against you, or make anything weird out of it. She detected an issue that needed to be dealt with...and maybe, in the long run, saw it as better for you to be aware of it.

You'll certainly be less self-conscious in the future if it's something you can find an answer for!

I have an idea: and it might be just the thing! Simple solution: Get one of those small, dollar store write-on/wipe off boards, and hang it on your bathroom door. Keep track of when you shower/bathe. Write it down every time. (Erase the last one, only keep the LATEST one up.) That way, you won't need to feel self-conscious, or embarrassed like that, ever again. And you can face social situations with more confidence, too.

If our medical people can't express common concerns like this to us, who can? Besides, hygeine is also a health concern. You don't need to be developing skin conditions before someone alerts you to a possible problem, right?

I also agree with what smuggers wrote.

Talking it out, telling her how it all made you feel is much better than fleeing...problems only follow us when we don't face them.

She may have some more effective and helpful ways of getting a handle on this, too.

You also mentioned it's something you don't feel like going through with anyone else...I'd stick with her. Having a therapist who KNOWS you well can be a very precious commodity.

(((Hugs)))

i understand completely...the whole thing gets tiring. i have been working on this for years. when my terrific doc moved some years ago, i couldn't repeat all of it again. new doc used her notes and we began from there...best to you.

Sorry your pdoc hurt your feelings. What exactly did she say? I am sure she was trying to help you.

Maybe give her another chance and tell her how hurt you were by what she said.

she may have brought this up for another reason.like u i have trouble remembering when i did wat and when in a bout of depresion i hate water- a dripping tap-the shower-flushing the loo.but strangly enough when i do throw myself in the shower (sumtimes against my own will) i feel so much better.its a symptom of depresion not often talked about or even brought up.yes its a sensitive issue but i would ask her where she was cumming from first.

Thank you all for your comments. I really thought no one would even read my post. Depression- you think?

I like Spiral's suggestion about the write on board that's very practical and doable. I will try it.

As for all of you saying I should talk it out with her- I'm sure you're right. It is hard to push my mind into thinking about going back- but I also know I should. This is not the first time I have thought about never going back to therapy. When I finally come back to myself I can usually see the best thing to do.

Thank you all again.